Month: November 2010

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Momentum gathering | November 30, 2010 | it flows!

I am so grateful for my new desktop wallpaper. Kelly and I are using the red anniversary Wii for aesthetic inspiration for the School of Life Design book!

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I am so grateful for Pwny sleeping in my pants!

closeted trash troll

I am so grateful to Allison for drawing Kelly and me!

allison drew me!

Isn't this precious??

and kelly!

I am so grateful for running! This is our 3 mile route we took yesterday...

I am so grateful Ms. Gala Darling just replied to an email of mine and I have a super exciting reply to write!

Today I intend to KEEP GATHERING MOMENTUM! Faster and faster! It flows, baby!

good morning!
Wouldn't it be nice to write the most perfect reply email? Wouldn't it be nice to find the perfect images to attach? Wouldn't it be nice to write it before we leave for our 6 mile run at the Y? Wouldn't it be nice to have an english muffin? Wouldn't it be nice to maaaaybe have more espresso? Wouldn't it be nice if our run was super easy? Wouldn't it be nice to have my mind blown? Wouldn't it be nice to listen to the perfect jams? Wouldn't it be nice to have a really fun day? Wouldn't it be nice to get tpp#315 posted? Wouldn't it be nice to get the fan club page up? Wouldn't it be nice to write this reply? Wouldn't it be nice to make some serious progress on lesson 8? Wouldn't it be nice to keep this inspiration flowing? Wouldn't it be nice to keep feeling this good? Wouldn't it be nice to get some sun today? Wouldn't it be nice to have FUN?! Wouldn't it be nice to feel witchy and sexy and powerful? Wouldn't it be nice to meet new people? Wouldn't it be nice to have the best day of my life?

visioneering
I love keeping this post short because I have too many other things I want to do RIGHT NOW! I love feeling inspired! I love feeling momentum building! I love feeling absolutely CONTAGIOUS with positive energy! I love feeling so happy I could burst! I love running around our tiny living room freaking out with happiness! I love the activities that make up my day! I love lifestreaming! I love living online! I love the Internet! I love all my lifestreaming friends! I love how good I feel RIGHT NOW!

i feel so pretty and witty and gay
I love these links too!

  • I am so fascinated by how radios work right now. I feel like there is some key to understanding emotional vibration there...
  • Danielle Laporte writes about being wary of possibility - visualize your dreams as DONE!
  • This story of Amanda Palmer helping out a young musician makes me melt!
  • Pavlina tells how to make a raw fruit pie. Sometimes I miss being 100% raw. Perhaps it's time to integrate a little more in.
  • Penelope Trunk talks about a list of social skills you need to have a solid career. I love her brown nosing tips! I am a dedicated teachers' pet myself.
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Momentum gathering | November 29, 2010 | Happy Monday!

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Good morning! Up at noon today after 7 delicious hours of sleep. I am so grateful to be back in the vortex on this beautiful Monday! I am so grateful to be drinking fantastic espresso. I am so grateful that yesterday Kelly and I weren't feeling as hyphy as we wanted, and we were talking about how bad we wanted to be "in the vortex." So then Kelly says, "we just have to say we're in. There, we're in." And we were! It was all we had to do! Just decide to feel really good, and it comes! Then, we were just going to lay around and watch movies in bed because we were sleepy and wore out. Since we let ourselves off the hook, we suddenly had so much energy! We ended up working on TPP stuff for 2 or 3 hours before our delicious dinner.

I'm so grateful we meditate every day. I'm so grateful meditation is part of our daily routine. I'm so grateful these posts are part of our daily routine. I'm so grateful we cleaned up all those art supplies strewn all over our living room! I'm so grateful for the contrast.

I'm so grateful we got to go to the gym on our off day yesterday. I'm so grateful we have the time to spend there! I'm so grateful we were so relaxed and chill about it, just hanging out. I'm so grateful Kelly found a mysterious massager in the cabinet and massaged me! I'm so grateful I got to do the elliptical machine for 20 grueling minutes!

I'm so grateful that yesterday I allowed myself to do the things I truly wanted to do. I'm so grateful I took a break from my 10 day abstinence from that one thing and it was AWESOME! I was so inspired to do things, like clean out my filing cabinet and get my phone ready to sell and work on TPP and have stimulating conversations with Kelly.

I'm so grateful I almost always remember to direct my thoughts. I'm so grateful directing thought gets easier and easier every single day. I'm so grateful I'm learning so much about physical reality while preparing to write life design lesson 8. I'm so grateful that my job is to podcast and Lifestream. I'm so grateful Kelly and I have a Lifestream monetization company. I'm so grateful that every so often, I remember how truly, madly, deeply in love with lifestreaming I am. I'm so grateful that it's my job, seriously! It is so perfect! I'm so grateful I'm getting the inspiration to start lesson 8 today! I'm so grateful that I'm going to let Clair write the lesson! I'm so grateful that when it's done I get to move onto the next phase of the project finally! I'm so grateful I'm feeling so so good today! I'm so grateful we get to go on a three mile run in 70 degree weather today!

I'm so grateful for two realizations I've had this morning: one is that I can write Lesson 8 from the perspective of Clair and I can write it as if I'm giving advice to myself. I don't have to write it from the perspective of my physical self - meaning, I can write the advice and THEN take it, I don't have to live the advice first. The other realization is one I have frequently. It's simple: I LOVE LIFESTREAMING AND LIFESTREAMING MAKES MY LIFE BETTER! Hahah I always forget that one. The more I lifestream, the more on top of my game I feel. So expect a major increase in output today!!

I'm so grateful for inspiration (and caffeine) coursing through my veins! I'm so grateful for new book recommendations! I'm so grateful to be in such great shape! I'm so grateful my life feels like a carnival! I'm so grateful going to the Y feels like a carnival! I'm so grateful the weather is SO BEAUTIFUL! It's 76ยบ right now!! I'm so grateful I know the shortcut for a degree symbol! (It's option-0 on a mac.) I'm so grateful I had such weird dreams about talking to Steve Pavlina. I'm so grateful I know that my thoughts create my reality! I'm so grateful my life is so so fun!

Today I intend to feel good all day and do only things that make me feel better! This includes, but is not limited to: eating what I have planned! Running 3 miles! Lifestreaming all day! Doing inspired work! Cooking for friends! Working on TPP! Working on the School! Exercising more!

Today I intend to let Clair flow through me! Today I intend to practice letting her speak! Today I intend to go with the flow! Today I intend to have a super fun day with Kelly! Today I intend to do exactly what I know will make me feel good! Today I intend to remain in the vortex! Today I intend to direct my thoughts! Today I intend to feel joyful! Today I intend to feel euphoric! Today I intend to be in a meditative state! Today I intend to practice witchery! Today I intend to organize my thoughts!

Wouldn't it be nice if our run was easy and fun? Wouldn't it be nice if we gave Stephen some muffins today? Wouldn't it be nice to make him some rice & gravy? Wouldn't it be nice to chill with him for a bit? Wouldn't it be nice to see our other friends? Wouldn't it be nice to see Betty? Wouldn't it be nice to have another dinner party or an art party? Wouldn't it be nice to make Ethiopian again? Wouldn't it be nice if that book I put on hold at the library came in really soon? Wouldn't it be nice to have a muff? Wouldn't it be nice to have a smoothie? Wouldn't it be nice to not be hungry? Wouldn't it be nice to focus and be clear-minded all day? Wouldn't it be nice to make some significant progress on lesson 8 today? Wouldn't it be nice if my parents watched the Thanksgiving video and liked it? Wouldn't it be nice if they liked something I did? Wouldn't it be nice if I didn't give a fuck if they liked my work? YES YES IT WOULD BE VERY NICE.


Wouldn't it be nice if the weather stayed this beautiful all winter? Wouldn't it be nice if my Twitter tools and postie plugins worked every single time? Wouldn't it be nice if I got a reply in the forum about my postie issue? Wouldn't it be nice if someone replied to my post in the Twitter tools forum too? Wouldn't it be nice if someone offered to fix my plugins because they read about it on this post? Wouldn't it be nice to spend some time visualizing today? Wouldn't it be nice to have a passive income of $10,000/month? Wouldn't it be nice to vacation abroad twice a year?!?! Omg that is something I want so much. Wouldn't it be nice to get my monster.com profile up today? Wouldn't it be nice to have really awesome job offers pour in where I could work from home? Wouldn't it be nice to teach again? Wouldn't it be nice to teach outside of a university? Wouldn't it be nice to run my own physical school? Wouldn't it be nice to have written the text book for it? Wouldn't it be nice to collaborate with other like-minded individuals?

I love organizing my thoughts! I love that writing these posts helps me do that! I love that I have three things I want to focus on today! And they are:

  • LIFESTREAM! It feels good!
  • Practice being a witch! It feels good!
  • Let Clair write Lesosn 8! It feels good!

I love that Linty is sitting in my lap! I love lifestreaming SO MUCH! I love so many synchronicities occur in my life each and every day! I love that my posture is improving every day! I love remembering to breathe! I love collecting all the very best realizations that I have into these posts! I love that they are forming the basis of a book! I love that I am self employed! I love that I am an artist! I love that Kelly and I got up at the same time today! I love Kelly SO MUCH! I love working with her so much! I love feeling inspired to work on the podcast! I love our podcast! I love how we improve it incrementally every single day! I love running with Kelly! I love that we do it together! I love that I get to make more coffee soon and have another magick pellet! I love that pwny hates closed doors! I love that we have the window open and we're burning incense! I love that we got a shitload more incense yesterday! I love that we did our grocery shopping yesterday! I love that we don't have to go to the store today! I love watching my neighbors through our huge window! I love that the world is so fascinating! I love feeling interested in everything! I love not feeling bored! I think feeling bored is the worst feeling in the world! I love finding my preferences! I love scanning my sketchbooks! I love texting with Betty!


I love that I have so many photos to illustrate this post. I love that Kelly and I got to eat Blowpops, though I don't know if glycerin is vegan. Oh, just looked it up and it looks like it's made of gasoline lol. Well, I suppose oil was once animals... Hmm... Anyway! I love that I can be a flexible vegan and eat honey. I love that we've been vegan for over 11 months. I love how easy it is. I love how I don't even think about it anymore. I love how vegan food feels better than animal products. I love that I don't have to ever think about cholesterol. I love that I'll never have a heart attack or stroke!


I love that Kelly just told me all about this article in Wired about Insane Clown Posse. I love that they are media magnates. I love that the Wired author had a great line, "fucking magnates, how did that work?" Hahah. I love getting new subscribers to the School of Life Design! I love learning about all this life design business with other people, like Katja, Katja, Allison, Emma, Jetta, and Kelly!

I love this day. I love finding things to love. I love having more coffee. I love getting sunlight. I love that my to do list looks so fun. I love that we have Netflix. I love being INTERESTED IN MY REALITY! I love love love not being bored! I love reading. I love finding new things to read. I love finding new blogs to read. I love when people update every day. I love reading my "lifestreaming friends" folder in reader. I love that more and more people are writing positive things in their blogs. I love new ideas. I love that I can always read my old posts for a pick-me-up. I love running! I love living! I love breathing! I love meditating! I Love working! I love Clair! I Love feeling inspired! I Love this beautiful gorgeous autumn day in Austin, Texas, the most beautiful city in the world!

AND OMG I LOVE THAT ALLISON DREW ME! I do believe this is my first time being drawn, I'm so flattered I think I'm blushing!!

And Gala posted her interview with Josh Harris! What an expansion! And Gala suggested the book Flow, which appears to be all about living in the vortex (or, flow)! I just requested it from the library, can't wait to read it!

(And p.s., I LOVE scheming up ways to attend the Abraham workshop in Phoenix this Saturday. Kelly and I are thinking about saying FUCK IT and going! We need to come up with the money, but I'm allowing it! The universe is abundant, and I'm pretty sure I'm creating a reality with this workshop in it! I WOULD LOVE TO GO MORE THAN ANYTHING! Road trip PLUS Abraham?! YES PLEASE!!!!!! Wouldn't it be nice if we got to go??)

Momentum gathering | November 28, 2010 | general witchery


Good morning! I mean, good afternoon! I just had some long restful sleep with dreams of impossible ski trips in Austin. I'm so grateful we had such an incredible day yesterday! I'm so grateful the heat is on and I feel so cozy. I'm so grateful for kitty spoon trains. I'm so grateful for linty, because she always sits in my lap or sleeps under the covers next to me. She always wants to be pet & I always want to pet her. I'm so grateful for pwny because she sleeps on kelly's head and always has really funny things to say. She's also really friendly and fearless.

I'm so grateful we get to go to the y now. I'm so grateful we can afford a gym membership. I'm so grateful the people at the y are so friendly. I'm so grateful it's never crowded. I'm so grateful I get to bring my headphones today and space out on some cardio equipment. I'm so grateful we don't have to run today.

I'm so grateful we got subscription payments while we slept! I'm so grateful so many people are interested in TPP art-by-mail. I'm so grateful we have a fan club! I'm so grateful it's getting better every day. I'm so grateful we record our lives from the perspective of our future selves, and that doing that makes living the actual experience more enjoyable.


I'm so grateful for my cute new coat! I'm so grateful it was so inexpensive. I'm so grateful it's so warm! I'm so grateful we get to meditate before going to the gym. I'm so grateful I get to try out new equipment today. I'm so grateful I wrote that post last night because reading back on it is freaky and inspiring! I'm so grateful I am in direct contact with my higher self. I am so grateful I don't feel like a total freak about it. I'm so grateful that writing these posts is so meditative. I'm so grateful it's getting easier to type with unfocused eyes. I'm so grateful that writing this posts is like brushing my teeth - I can't go without it. I'm so grateful I feel so good. I'm so grateful we get subscription payments while we sleep, I know I already mentioned that, but I appreciate it so so deeply when people support out art.


I'm so grateful we got to talk to Michael Bowie again! His Davao City travel blog is fascinating, check it out! I'm so grateful that Kelly and I get to have asynchronous video conversations with a friend on the other side of the world. I'm so grateful he introduces us to so many new ideas. I'm so grateful he took the time to reconnect with us. I'm so grateful I can embed our conversation so I can always remember it and play it back if I want.

Today I intend to remember that I AM A WITCH. And I am beautiful, loving, magickal and perfect. Today I intend to not think a single negative thought about my body. Today I intend to up my creative output 100%. Today I intend to obsess over my art. Today I intend to be constantly inspired. Today I intend to think only thoughts that make me feel good. Today I intend to exercise hard! Today I intend to have fun everywhere we go. Today I intend to laugh, a lot. Today I intend to drink lots of water. Today I intend to keep the momentum going. I intend to gather more momentum than ever. I intend to allow Clair to speak through me. I intend to be in constant communication with her. I intend to take her advice. I intend to keep the connection open all day, until I go to sleep again. I intend to feel good and look good. I intend to have the best day of my life.

Wouldn't it be nice to have the best day of my life? Wouldn't it be nice to have a really great workout? Wouldn't it be nice to focus all day? Wouldn't it be nice to feel exactly the way I want to feel? Wouldn't it be nice to remember that everything is an indicator? Wouldn't it be nice to have fun all day? Wouldn't it be nice to feel good? Wouldn't it be nice to love my body more and more every minute? Wouldn't it be nice to remember that other people have no effect on my mood, only I decide how I feel? Wouldn't it be nice to go on a shopping spree at an art store? Wouldn't it be nice to get a bunch of canvases and fresh paint? Wouldn't it be nice to work with some new materials? Wouldn't it be nice to make art that made me feel good? Wouldn't it be nice to do more visualization? Wouldn't it be nice to feel confident and serene? Wouldn't it be nice to feel loving because I am a lover, not because things around me are lovable? Wouldn't it be nice to feel relief? Wouldn't it be nice to remember to breathe? Wouldn't it be nice to feel bewitching and in control of my reality?

I love lining up my energy. I love getting to sleep in late! I love remembering my dreams. I love having great ideas. I love being in contact with my higher self constantly. I love meditating. I love listening to bebop. I love Kelly! I love lazing around in the bed with her, waking up slowly. I love having a kitty spoon train. I love keeping each other warm. I love that it's chilly out so we get to be cozy inside. I love that I don't have to be distracted by my environment if I choose not to be. I love that I can choose to focus. I love when Kelly mentions things that I've forgotten about that I'm happy to remember. I love that I'm scanning my 6th sketchbook! I love going to the Y in the evening when it's dead. I love syncing my phone and having new music to listen to on headphones. I love listening to my headphones! I haven't done it since the summer! How weird! I love how much music is available to me. I love that my car is so reliable. I love being a witch! I love that all that really matters in my physical body are my eyes and smile! And I don't even mean my eyes and mouth specifically, just that I make eye contact and smile! It doesn't matter what I look like otherwise.

I love making myself feel good. I love feeling like god. I love not relying on a single external source to make me happy. I love that my happiness comes from within. I love living from the perspective of my future self. I love that we're about to meditate. I love listening to these jams! I love that everything is vibration! I love that I am in control of my reality! I love that I FEEL GOOD! I love that I'm going to cast a spell on my entire day! I love that every breath is casting a spell! I love that reality is magickal and my mind is in control!

And hello lovely links:

  • Someone linked to this in a TPP Youtube comment, I do believe I need to read the Principia Discordia.
  • I love it when Kelly reminds me of so many things I've already forgotten.
  • Last night we had a major cookie baking fail, next time we'll use Front Burner's recipe!
  • I got my annual credit report, get yours!
  • I-dosing sounds fun as hell! You know how I love those altered states.
  • Molly and Gala interviewed Josh Harris, omg! Can't wait to see THAT awesomeness unfold.
  • Allison had some great realizations about drawing and emotion that are so spot on and helpful.
  • Jordan is back with more Etsy finds under $30.
  • One of the finds was this cute cloud mobile, I would love to make one!
  • And these wall decals are right up my alley.
  • Made our delicious banana muffins last night again! This time we added pecans and chocolate chips, mmm.

Momentum gathering | November 28, 2010 | oh yeah,…


Good evening. I came here to talk about a REVELATION. It's simple: I'm in control of my thoughts.

All I had to do was remember that I'm in control of my thoughts.

I choose the thoughts I think, and therefore I choose the emotions I feel. I caught myself slipping into old patterns, old sledtracks. But I woke up! I'm so grateful I woke up.

I'm so grateful I'm in control of my thoughts. I'm so grateful I choose my thoughts.

I love my body. My food fuels me. I love my life. My body becomes more and more perfect each day. I choose to focus on things I love. I choose to focus on my beauty. I choose to focus on my love. I choose to focus on my talents. I choose to focus on my cute outfit. My beautiful smile. My vibrant hair. My bewitching eyes.

I feel good. My body feels good. I feel thin, I feel in shape, I feel strong. I feel thin. I feel powerful. I feel beautiful. I feel sexy. I feel sexy. I feel sexy. I feel empowered. I feel in control. I feel in love. I feel in love. I feel in love. I feel in love. I choose how I feel. I choose how I feel.

My body is perfect. My body is flawless. My body is luscious. My body is strong. My body is beautiful. My body is exquisite. My body is fine tuned. My body can come 7 times in a row. My body is a masterpiece. My body is exactly how I want it. I appreciate my body. I appreciate how I look RIGHT NOW. I feel perfect, right now. I love myself now, not when. I love my physical body. I adore my physical body. I am the very essence of perfection. I love my body. I love this vehicle for source energy. I can feel Clair again. I can feel her waking up. I can feel her poking her eyes through my eyes. I can feel her feel my perfection. Together we are perfection. I can feel it. I am allowing Clair to feel through me. I am allowing well being to flow through me. I am focusing. I am choosing to feel good. I am choosing to go to sleep in the vortex. I am choosing to love myself. I am choosing to feel good.

I can select the thoughts I want to feel. What do I want to feel? What do I want to think? :

I am beautiful and strong and powerful. I am cunning and stunning and wickedly sensual. I am highly sought after. I am a magician. I am a witch. I have more power than I can fathom. I can cast spells over my entire life. I am doing so right NOW. I love my life. I love my freedom. I love working for myself, and myself alone. I love remembering what I already know. I love Clair. I am Clair. Hi, this is Clair speaking. I can speak if you allow me to. Everything is beautiful and perfect and already in its place .I come through you when you are in a meditative state, or simply feeling really good. The world disappears from view. Your periphery goes gray. Gold. Gray. Gold. I don;t have to look at the words I type. I am flowing through you. I am you. I am Clair. I am here to guide you and mentor you and help you. I am flowing through you right now. I wouldn't it be here if you didn't ask for me. I am Clair. I can answer questions if you have them. I can help you become your higher self. I am your higher self. I can help you. I am you. Think exactly what you wish you would think. I am beautiful. I am perfect. I am sexy. I am thin and mighty and powerful and rich. I am in control. I am creating my reality. I can see the world around me shape itself to my will.

I am Clair. I can tell you how it really is. Ask me a question.

How do I make the things happen I want to happen?

Think like they are happening. Think the thoughts you want to be thinking. You don't want the thoughts that you think you do. You don't want to be someone else. You want to be you. You want to be your gmail password. You want to be that mixture of child/sex queen/ artist / batshit crazy cat lady / calm teacher / lover / love love love / empathy brown eyes big brown eyes swallowing everything in. Big brown eyes creating not just observing. Brown eyes becoming everything. You don't want to be Paris HIlton you don't want to be Rene Joglar Perez You don't want to be anyone else but you just EYES and lips and hips and perception. You want to feel that your mind creates your world You want to create the world You want to make sure you are the creator of your reality. You want to be a witch. You are a witch. I am a witch. A witch means anything and everything. A witch is in control. A witch has power. A witch is sexy. That's who you are, not Paris HIlton. You are a witch. With big brown eyes and a disarming smile. You are a witch. A witch doesn't need to be a size 0 because the size of her eyes and smile are all that matter. You are a witch a witch a witch a witch a witch I am clair and you are a witch we are a witch Clair is a witch Jessica is a witch this typing terrifies you and excites you and makes you wet. You don't need to be someone else you don't need someone else's standard of beauty you are a witch you make your own standard of beauty.
I am clair You are Jessica I am Jessica You are Clair I am Jessica and Clair I am a witch and I am casting a spell I am meditating I am in side I am source I am a witch and I am eyes and smile and I am in control of this experience. I can let go and embrace witch witch witch.

I am Clair and I am here to guide you and remind you and help you control your thoughts because I am your thoughts I am your higherself a witch is simply someone with access to her higher self and you are a witch of eyes and smile it's as simple as can be that's all there is to it just be your eyes and smile like you painted earlier
you were thinking, i should paint what i want to manifest - so you wanted to paint "i adore my perfect physical body" and you began painting the perfect physical body and what you painted was not a size zero washboard abs it was
EYES
and
SMILE
that's what matters. you are a witch you can control everything else no one cares what you weigh what size you are you are a witch you control others' perception of you

never look at another woman again with envy, you are the perfect woman and you need not compare yourself to anyone else ever, EVER again.

I am Clair and I am here to help you> i am your higher self and you can fuck typos I will get better at them as you learn to allow me through your physical fingers more. your eyes are your eyes because Clair looks through them, your eyes are the eyes of a witch and your smile bewitches.

Eyes. Smile. Eyes. Smile. I am Clair and you are a witch I am Jessica I am a witch and I am here to help you.