Daily Guide to Life Design #3: Adderall

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Daily Guide to Life Design #3: Adderall

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Does seeing the word Adderall make you salivate? Does it unleash an unreasonable craving, or pull up fun memories?

On November 24, 2013, I quit taking addies for good. I needed too much, I was abusing it, to the point that a friend had to step in and say something.

I've been experimenting with the medicine since I was 15, when someone at school gave me a tiny blue 5mg pill. Eager to try anything my parents said I shouldn't, I began a 16 year infatuation with legal speed.

Adderall is just too good. It keeps you awake, makes you feel euphoric, lets you drink more alcohol and eat less food.

It is also a highly addictive amphetamine, and few people I know are able to turn it down when offered.

There's nothing wrong with taking some occasional speed. And there may be some people in the universe who genuinely benefit from their prescription. But if you are a star child here to help consciousness evolve, it might be time to let the uppers go. According to starchildren.info,

It is critically important that if your child gets diagnosed with ADD or ADHD that you don’t run out and join the medicated child bandwagon. Medicating these special children will severely inhibit their abilities. This is a really easy option for many parents who just aren't patient or can't handle their Indigo children. Try to look at the bigger picture. You and your child have both previously agreed to your arrangement before you even set foot on this earth. Know that children can be handled without medication. This may be very difficult for some parents so consider joining a support group or even better, order up an angel to help you! It's a difficult journey but one that can be made through together. The problem with medicating Indigo Children is that it lowers their vibrational frequency. They will be unable to or find it extremely difficult to fulfill their life's purpose at this lower energy level.

After taking high doses of addy and observing my behavior, I noticed the drawbacks were beginning to outweigh the advantages. I constantly felt "lacking," waiting for my next dose. There is never enough. I don't want to share. After a few days on the stuff, I could barely smile because the tension in my head was so high. And coming down off an addy binge is horrific--no motivation, shortness of breath, weakness, boredom and depression, and wanting to eat every pizza I see.

Adderall takes such a prominent place in my daily life design guide because I see it as a mind-based epidemic spiraling out of control like obesity. It's a symptom of our collective psychotic mind, over-thinking so much that we need an energy boost to keep up. Want another perspective? Check out Cat Marnell's explanation of why we all need to finally get off the Adderall.

I feel so much better when I'm off addy. I'm glad I got to have all the fun I did with it, but it's no longer serving my spiritual evolution. I write this having just drunk 2 shots of espresso, another legal stimulant I may someday wish to let go. Baby steps though right?

How do you feel about Adderall, legal speed, and uppers in your life design practice?

Jessica Mullen

Living the magick life.

3 COMMENTS
  • Ari

    Whenever you write about drugs I always feel like YESSSSSS, I HEAR YOU GURL.

    On pharmaceutical stim-free days I feel like I have the mental capacity and focus of a dog. Easily distracted by noises outside and rolling around and constantly sniffing out things to eat and slobbering all over my partner for attention because I feel silly and want to play. But Adderall = I’m a functioning human again.

    I don’t have ADD. My standard of ‘functioning human’ is actually ‘freak focus non-eating cyborg’, I think.

    I read this one day while on an Adderall addicts site trying to convince myself it wasn’t worth taking that day (I did anyway) but it seemed pretty relevant:

    http://quittingadderall.com/6-qualities-most-adderall-takers-have-in-common/

    Especially this:

    “But for all their widely-applicable ability, for all the the things they are really good it, there is often one special thing that they [Adderall users] are absolutely brilliant at. But there is a catch: that special talent that they are extra-good at, that piece of gold in a sea of silver, is very often something that is unconventional, off the beaten path, hard to make a living off of, and hard to get approval from.”

    I find better understanding the reasons behind my substance use (even just coffee) helps me make more aware choices as to WHY I choose to take them, in the moment. And that makes all the difference between using something to avoid reality and using something to enhance it. So I still take it but I make absolutely sure it’s for the right reasons – I don’t let myself use it as the solution to a problem, and it’s fine.

    And Cat Marnell is a babe.

  • jessica mullen

    Oooooh girlfriend! Thank you so much for letting me know I’m not alone!

    Your dog-self sounds so fun and natural :D But “Freak focus non-eating cyborg” is also so compelling!!!

    Really, thank you for sharing your perspective, and for that link! Haha those 6 qualities… they nailed it all right…

  • Claudia

    Totally agreed! I’m glad you are writing about these things. It’s so important that we all raise our vibration and help our children maintain theirs with the purest thoughts and habits. The world’s health depends on it.

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