Last week I auditioned to be a kickboxing instructor. Preparing for this event was beyond stressful. I have complete confidence in my mind and creativity, and have no problem performing at traditional job interviews. But at this audition, I was putting my physical body up for judgement. Was I slim enough? Did I kick my leg at the right angle? Should I be smiling, or snarling? Despite my worries, I ended up having a great time, and it was way easier than I thought it would be. While I haven't yet heard if I made it or not, I am so proud of myself for trying. Here are a few things that helped me believe in myself, relax and do my best.
1. Put on your sunglasses.
My friends and I were relaxing on a patch of grass on campus. A man came up to us and asked if he could freestyle for us. He requested a word from each of us (twilight, button, and exorcist), then started rapping with them. When his flow stuttered, he paused to put on his sunglasses. "When my eyes are closed, I can see a picture painted by your words. Then the words just flow." Sunglasses are my new favorite creative tool!
2. Try this mantra: "I live this moment fully as it is without needing it to be different."
I found this idea in How to Wake Up: A Buddhist-Inspired Guide to Navigating Joy and Sorrow. Last week, in the days leading up to my audition, an old knee injury started acting up. I spent a lot of time making peace with what was, and this mantra really helped me put things in perspective.
3. Have a knee injury? Check your ego.
According to Louise Hay, knee injuries are related to pride and ego. I had been stressed about how people were going to perceive me at my audition, and knew the injury was directly related to my thoughts about myself. Louise suggests the mantra, "I am flexible and flowing," which helped me release attachment to a specific outcome. Low and behold, the instant my audition was over, my knee felt 100% better.
4. Try this mantra: "I love miracles!"
This past weekend was my friend Emily's birthday, and I really wanted to spend some time with her. But our schedules just weren't going to allow it. I had friends in town, and she was busy with her own celebrations. I let my desire go and trusted I would get to see her eventually. Sunday afternoon, as Kelly and I walked our bikes down Barton Springs Road, we saw Emily and two other friends walking towards us. I SCREAMED with delight. The universe brought us together with zero effort on our part. It was a miracle! Wanting to plant a seed from the experience to grow more like it, I thought, "I love miracles!" The more I placed my focus on the thought, the more miracles I started seeing everywhere.
5. Just have fun!
The day before my audition, I got a Facebook message from one of my instructors at the gym. She wished me luck, and reminded me, "Just have fun!" I remembered that fun was the whole reason I wanted to try out in the first place. Remembering to be light and playful helped me enjoy the experience no matter what the outcome.
6. Try this mantra: "I've decided to feel good about that. It'll work itself out."
So my knee was hurting, I was nervous about transportation to the audition, and my anxiety levels were through the roof. Just in the nick of time, I got a pingback from Jesslyn Littlepage, reminding me of this mantra. Every time I thought of my audition, I said to myself, "I've decided to feel good about my audition. It'll work itself out." Kelly told me to make it into a game. "The less you think about it, the better," she said. And what do you know, it worked itself out.
Neale Donald Walsch suggests, "Choose a State of Being (Happy, Compassionate, Wise, Caring, Creative, Considerate, Forgiving, etc) in advance of each approaching moment." When you set intentions before entering a segment of your life, you're on the lookout for evidence that your intentions are manifesting. What you focus on, expands.