399 Days

Jessica Mullen
So happy and grateful to be awake and alive! so happy and grateful to feel good now. SO happy and grateful to still be sober. So happy and grateful to be 399 days sober! So happy and grateful sobriety is working out for me. SO happy and grateful to be here now. So happy and grateful I can relax and enjoy the present moment. So happy and grateful to have butter in the fridge. So happy and grateful to have money for groceries. So happy and grateful to feel happy and healthy. So happy and grateful for natural remedies. So happy and grateful to feel pretty. So happy and grateful to feel good about myself. So happy and grateful to feel well being flowing through me.

Wouldn't it be nice to have the best day of my life? Wouldn't it be nice to stay sober? Wouldn't it be nice to write every day? Wouldn't it be nice to lighten up and not be so serious? Wouldn't it be nice to focus on FUN and SPONTANEITY? Wouldn't it be nice to look for evidence of fun and spontaneity? Wouldn't it be nice to have the best workout of my life? Wouldn't it be nice to feel better and better as the day unfolds? Wouldn't it be nice to stay sober today? Wouldn't it be nice if it was easier to stay sober? Wouldn't it be nice to not crave? Wouldn't it be nice to surrender? WOuldn't it be nice to let go? Wouldn't it be nice to make cookies and cut the cats' nails and help clean? Wouldn't it be nice to let go of my resistance? Wouldn't it be nice to make my best work? Wouldn't it be nice to play? Wouldn't it be nice to say YES? WOuldn't it be nice to celebrate how far I've come?

Wouldn't it be nice to trust the process of life? Wouldn't it be nice to focus my attention? Wouldn't it be nice to count to 10000? Wouldn't it be nice to let go of my worries and NOT GIVE A FUCK? WOuldn't it be nice to feel the best I've ever felt? Wouldn't it be nice to play music? Wouldn't it be nice to trust the process of life? WOuldn't it be nice to never wonder if I'm going to drink? WOuldn't it be nice to just let it go??

I've noticed I'm mad at myself for craving alcohol and that's ok. I've noticed I feel annoyed by alcohol culture and that's ok. I've noticed I feel nervous and triggered and that's ok. I've noticed I feel WORRIED AND THAT'S OK.

I've decided to feel good about cravings. They're working themselves out. I've decided to feel good about X. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about sharing power. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about my life. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about being sober. It's working itself out.

What do I want?
To forget alcohol
To feel BRAVE AND COURAGEOUS AND CONFIDENT
To play
To laugh
To feel wild and fun on my own
To be inspired to create
To get that chakra book for K
To remember I live the magick life!
To focus my attention
To train my mind
To feel disciplined and beautiful and in control
To feel successful and focused on DOING ME
To be so busy with my success that I don't have time to wonder if I'm going to drink

I intend to have the best day of my life. Today I intend to feel the best I've ever felt. I intend to make my best work. I intend to be kind and compassionate. I intend to fly! I intend to let go of my worries and resistance. I intend to appreciate what I have. I intend to be my reason for feeling good.

Today I intend to be at peace with what is. I intend to not give a fuck! I intend to love myself! I intend to be the best version of myself. I intend to be magickal. I intend to remember I live the magick life! I intend to practice my magick!

I PRAY TO STAY SOBER TODAY
I PRAY TO STAY SOBER TODAY
I PRAY TO STAY SOBER TODAY
I PRAY TO STAY SOBER TODAY
I PRAY TO STAY SOBER TODAY

I'm switching to the version of reality I prefer. IN the reality I prefer, I feel the best I've ever felt. I LOVE BEING SOBER. It's easy being sober. I am at peace with what is. I love myself. I don't give a fuck! I am so happy where I am. I am so happy to be me. I surrender my preference. I am focused. I am training my mind.

In the reality I prefer, I am making my best work. I am letting go. I am free from worry and fear. I am full of GRATITUDE AND CONFIDENCE. I am in the flow. I am allowing well being to flow. In the reality I prefer, I am stepping outside of my ego. I am becoming the best version of myself. I am one with life. Life is living me!

I love it when I do the work. I love it when I write. I love it when I meditate. I love it when I take care of myself. I love it when I notice synchronicity. I love it when I play. I love it when I laugh. I love it when I am FUN! I love it when I feel fun and spontaneous. I love it when I look for evidence of what I want:
FUN
SPONTANEITY
PLAY
JOY
LOVE
CREATIVITY
INSPIRATION
FLOW

I love it when I surrender. I love it when I AM SOBER. I love it when I feel stronger. I love it when I love myself and I love it when I DON'T GIVE A FUCK!

Dear Jessica,
Relax and enjoy! This is all for you! You can do whatever you want! You don't have to give a fuck what other people think! It's all just a reflection of what YOU THINK. Let yourself enjoy your thoughts. It's all just for fun!