Month: September 2017

Jessica Mullen

604 Days Sober

Jessica Mullen
When I was first toying with the idea of sobriety, I searched everywhere for other people like me who were already sober. Sober mentors, if you will. Molly Soda is who really inspired me to go through with it.

It was challenging to find girls like me who were sober. Transitioning from a partying lifestyle to an alcohol-free one was daunting and there weren't a lot of examples to follow.

So I am writing this to be an example if anyone is looking. I've been sober for over a year and a half. I don't think about it that much anymore. I now have way more sober memories than drunk ones. It seems strange to me how much of my 20s and early 30s are just gone in blackouts. I had so much fun, but I don't remember a lot of it. Did I just think I had fun? Who knows? I wasn't there.

Writing this kind of wakes up the urge though. I still occasionally dream about drinking, but now it's just a detail rather than the dream topic. I'm not all, "Omg I'm so bad I'm drinking this vodka," I just remember there were alcoholic drinks on the table...

I am happy to report that I have totally rewired my coping mechanisms to function without alcohol. When I don't have alcohol to numb my mind, I turn to other things like weed and tv and food, and I had a 6 month fling with kratom. I loved the kratom, but started to get too into it. It's a phase, not a lifestyle.

Even though I still find myself numbing with other things, I sure as fuck remember it all. I remember everything. Actually, my memory isn't WAY better than it was when I was drinking... but that's probably the pot.

I haven't had a hard drug since quitting either, which is a pretty cool triumph. Not a single fun pill. I really have no desire either. Drinking constantly made me pretty exhausted, so it was no wonder I was always searching for uppers. Or painkillers for hangovers. No more!

Once in a while I catch myself noticing all the things I do that wouldn't have been possible with a hangover. Keeping up with the laundry. Taking out the trash. Basic chores just seem to do themselves. I always have the energy to get out of bed and take care of a few things. Aside from maybe one day in the winter, I don't think I've stayed in bed all day once in the past 1.6 years.

For the first year, I definitely felt FOMO about bars and drinking-centric events. I mostly felt sad that I wasn't fun anymore. I wasn't the wild one getting everyone to do shots and go cray. That was my JAM to be that person. Now I sit pretty quietly, sipping my diet coke, ready to leave when you are!

Sometimes though, I go to a party or a dinner and I have such a wonderful time, and I'm dead fucking sober. And it's so fun, because of the company, or because we're playing with flow toys, or there's just a genuine connection between me and the experience. I have fun, child-like, without alcohol. It is possible!

It is now way easier to NOT drink than it would be to start up again. Just today Kelly was telling me about an Osho passage, where a monk tries helping a thief. The monk tells the thief, "You can still steal, just be totally conscious when you do it." So the thief tries, but finds he can't--because he no longer has the unconscious forces driving him.

Alcohol is similar for me. If someone told me, "You can still drink, just be totally conscious when you do it," I wouldn't want to drink. I want to drink to BE UNCONSCIOUS. And that's not really my life plan anymore. I'm aiming for total consciousness. Life is just more fun. And more deep.

I do really miss the wild nights and chance happenings. The openness that happens when you hang out with people who party. The saying yes, going with the flow, the laughter. I miss being the underbelly of society really.

But I don't miss the drama. I don't miss the hangovers. I don't miss the fights, the weight gain, the canceled plans. I don't miss the barfing. At all.

Sometimes I really do want to throw it away and be "tortured" again. I want to have depth and demons and a substance that chases them away. But I've been there, and that existence was hollow and hard.

My biggest lesson is that drinking didn't solve my problems or change my habits. I still get up late. I still stay up late. I still wish I exercised more. Quitting drinking didn't make me suddenly a healthy well adjusted person. But it did allow me to make some new habits like working out at home, and brushing my teeth before bed.

I used to worry a lot about being uptight, or not fun anymore. But I think I'm slowly loosening up, on my own. The more I focus on opening and loosening and relaxing sober, the more I'm able to do it. I just never learned. Alcohol did a lot of things for me my entire adult life, so I never learned how to relax on my own or deal with anxiety.

The time I most want to drink is on road trips. Car travel is something that really stresses me out and I'm working on it! I just have to remember "I am the origin of the wave". What happens is the wave, and I can't stop it. But I can change the tune of the original signal. I can change what I'm projecting into the world, and then my experiences reflect it.

Instead of just protecting myself from my own sloppy thoughts with a bottle of vodka, I am learning to create a world I don't have to protect myself from. I am learning to be open, and to let go, and to love myself, and to be totally conscious.

Love What You're Doing Right Now

Daily Meditation – Love What You’re Doing Right Now


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Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Relax your body. Step into this present moment, where all of your power lies!

Breathe in and decide to love what you’re doing right now
Breathe out and relax because that’s the formula: as long as you love what you’re doing right now, you’ll always love your life.

Breathe in and say “I love myself!”
Breathe out and say “I love myself!”

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I love myself

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I love myself

Let this be your mantra today. Today, decide to think, “I love myself” and nothing else. What’s the best that could happen?

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I love myself

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I love myself

Even if you don’t believe it, even if it’s hard, even if it’s annoying at first—it’s going to be—keep practicing. Make it your goal for “I love myself” to be your solitary thought today.

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I love myself

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I love myself

The more you do this—the more you think “I love myself”—the more you’re training your brain to look for reasons to love yourself. The more evidence you’re going to find, reasons why you should love yourself, reasons why you do love yourself. You can choose right now, to live in a world that you love!

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I love myself

How much of your pain comes from thinking, “I hate myself” or “I’m so lame!” or judging yourself or criticizing yourself? Replace all of those thoughts with “I love myself”. Every time you make a mistake, “I love myself”. Every time you doubt yourself, “I love myself”. Get creative in how you think about it. Who is loving you? Is it your higher self? Is it god? Is it the universe? Is it your awareness, your deep-seated consciousness? Who is it that’s loving you??

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I love myself

It’s the creator, loving you. It’s YOU. It’s all that is, loving you. The more that you say it, the more you know it’s true.

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I love myself

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I love myself

Let yourself think this on repeat all day today. Really try to have a singular focus on this one thought. Just do it for one day.

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I love myself

Before you know it, people will be expressing their love for you. You just won’t need it anymore, because you’re already giving yourself what you want from other people.

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I love myself

Try it for just one day and see how fun and delicious life can be!

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I love myself

Jessica Mullen

THAT’S IT!

Jessica Mullen
So happy and grateful to be awake and alive! So happy and grateful to be here now. So happy and grateful I can choose to focus on loving myself and THAT'S IT! I really want to figure out how to better incorporate self love into this daily writing practice.

How can I use this writing to practice self love?
You already do

I have my format of daily spells but is it really that self lovey?

Yeah let's go with it. My mind is just resisting.

So happy and grateful to be in love with myself.
So happy and grateful to get to do aerial fitness.
So happy and grateful to have the perfect place to live.
So happy and grateful to always have plenty!
SO happy and grateful to love myself the way I am!
SO happy and grateful to have family who loves me!
SO happy and grateful I can focus on loving myself and that's enough.
So happy and grateful to feel like I'm enough.
SO happy and grateful to be in control of my vibration.
SO happy and grateful to feel connected and in the flow.
So happy and grateful to feel the flow.
So happy and grateful to feel excited about my life!
SO happy and grateful to be connected to spirit.
So happy and grateful to be getting better at being present.
SO happy and grateful to have inspiring music to listen to all day every day.

So happy and grateful to feel excited about this day. SO happy and grateful to be celebrating. SO happy and grateful to be focused on loving myself. So happy and grateful to have new opportunities every day. SO happy and grateful to relax and enter the present moment. SO happy and grateful to be making my best work. SO happy and grateful to be in love with myself.

Wouldn't it be nice to have the best day of my life?
Wouldn't it be nice to feel the best I've ever felt?
Wouldn't it be nice to take my swing outside?
Wouldn't it be nice to have trees we can slack and swing on?
Wouldn't it be nice to feel free and light and fun?!

I WANT

  • to focus on loving myself 100% all day today! I LOVE MYSELF.
  • to record my best video yet
  • to find some new songs to listen to
  • to feel energized and want to work on work
  • to work on the school
  • to have fun and laugh with keke all day
  • I love myself I love myself I love myself I love myself
  • I love myself I love myself I love myself I love myself
  • I love myself I love myself I love myself i love myself
  • to keep my mind and thoughts off this world
  • I want to get better at feeling the feeling when I think "I love myself". I want to have a way to think about that makes the feeling of unconditional love easier to access. A creative way to imagine.

Prepave! Wally world
What's the best that could happen before?
Feel fun!
What’s the best that could happen during?
I remember to love myself!
How do you want to feel after?
In love with myself!

I am a powerful witch. I command SELF LOVE!
I am a powerful witch. I command MONEY TO FLY AT ME!
I am a powerful witch. I command SINGULAR FOCUS!
I am a powerful witch. I command MY BEST WORK!

I've noticed I want to feel better and that's ok. I've noticed I feel anxious and that's ok! I've noticed I want to love myself more/better and that's ok.

I've noticed I want to let go of irritation and annoyance and that's ok! I've noticed I just want to feel love and that's ok!

I love myself. I Love myself. I love myself. I love myself.

I mean I love silent counting but I the thing I WANT the most is to love myself! SIlent counting works great to get out of a bad mood. But I'm in a decent mood. And I just want the feeling/high of loving myself!

I've decided to feel good about how much/how well I love myself. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about my self love practice. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about being irritated. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about this day. It's working itself out! I've decided to feel good about myself. I'm working myself out!

I wish I would run more tho lol.

Jessica, Even though you don't run very much, I love and accept you exactly the way you are.
Even though you're not perfect, I love and accept you exactly the way you are.

Today I intend to love myself. I intend to have a good day. I intend to love others. I intend to be kind and compassionate. I intend to be fun! I intend to have a singular focus on LOVING MYSELF.

I pray to stay sober today. I pray to let go of addictive thought. I pray to love myself unconditionally!

I'm switching to the version of reality I prefer. In the reality I prefer, I love myself. I don't give a fuck! I live the magick life! I am a powerful witch!

I love myself!
I don't give a fuck!
I live the magick life!
I am a powerful witch!

Obviously!

In the reality I prefer, everything is working itself out. I am doing my best. I am doing everything right. Im in the right place at the right time.

I am letting go of my worries. I never have to wonder. I am at peace with what is. I love myself!

I love it when I do the work. I love it when I find new music I love. I love it when I practice loving myself and it works! I love it when I love myself! I love it when I crack the fucking code!

Dear Jessica,
You are the code.
This is the code.
The code is the code.
You are loved infinitely, unconditionally.
You have access to it eternally.
Your attempts to love yourself are noticed.
You are getting better!
You wanted this, to practice. To know the joy of going from hate to love.
You are doing a great job!
Relax and enjoy it! You don't have to think another thought!
You love yourself!

Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – You Never Have To Wonder


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Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Relax your body.

Breathe in and enter this present moment
Breathe out and be still

Relax in your body. Step back from your thoughts.

Breathe in and watch your thoughts
Breathe out and just notice your thoughts

If you find yourself worrying today, remember this: You Never Have To Wonder!

All those times you say, “I wonder if… What if… I wonder if…”—relax and tell yourself: You Never Have To Wonder. If you’re wondering, you’re not believing in the magick. You think your mind has to figure it out. You think you have to physically step in. You think you have to fix it. But if you stop wondering, stop asking, “What if this happens,” you’re trusting the magick of life. Everything that happens will be exactly perfect.

Breathe in and say it to yourself: “You Never Have To Wonder”
Breathe out and focus your attention.

In this moment you know, you never have to wonder. If you find yourself wondering, “What should I do?” or, “Where should I go?” or, “What is this person doing?”, reply to your mind with, “You never have to wonder.” Stop those thoughts—those worried thoughts—in their tracks.

Breathe in and smile because you have the solution!
Breathe out and decide to never wonder.

I never have to wonder if my cat is distracting from this video. I never have to wonder if I’m doing a good job. I never have to wonder if I did the right thing, or if I’m going to do the right thing. I never have to wonder. Whatever the right thing is, will happen at the time it’s supposed to happen. I don’t have to get involved because I trust the magick of life.

Breathe in and tell yourself, “You Never Have To Wonder”
Breathe out and feel confident because you trust the process of life now!

Whatever life does, is better than whatever you could come up with in your mind.

Breathe in and trust the process of life
Breathe out and know: You Never Have To Wonder

Breathe in and believe in yourself
Breathe out and believe in the magick of life

You never have to wonder if you’re doing the right thing. You never have to wonder if it’s going to work out. You never have to wonder what someone else is doing. Whatever is, is perfect. Life already is the way you want it to be.

Breathe in and feel relieved
Breathe out and be free from worry, from wonder, from compulsive thinking.

You are now at peace with what is, because You Never Have To Wonder.

Jessica Mullen

Prosperity Plan Day 29: Successful!

Jessica Mullen

It's my favorite time of year! The cold weather has finally hit and I'm decked out in skeleton apparel. I've been tapering off caffeine--meaning I haven't had coffee in about 12 days. But while tapering, I still have some Diet Mountain Dew or Red Bull or Rock Star to transition... the plan is NO caffeine starting October 1 so that when we go on our Austin trip on October 26, the caffeine will feel amazing!

I already feel so much better not automatically chugging coffee first thing in the morning like a zombie. Today was the first day I was able to get out of bed easily, without dreading the morning because coffee withdrawal.

My biggest wish is to stop comparing myself to others. And my other biggest wish is to feel confident and make my best work. I want to reframe myself. I want to express myself better. I want to have and be fun!

So happy and grateful to be awake and alive. SO happy and grateful to feel confident and in love with myself! So happy and grateful to remember what I know: I LOVE MYSELF. I DON'T GIVE A FUCK. I LIVE THE MAGICK LIFE. I AM A POWERFUL WITCH.

So happy and grateful to have plenty of time. So happy and grateful to feel excited about my day. So happy and grateful to have music I'm into. So happy and grateful to feel confident and excited! SO happy and grateful business is booming! So happy and grateful to be making my best work right now! SO happy and grateful to be free from caffeine! SO happy and grateful to be sober! So happy and grateful to feel good about myself!

SO happy and grateful to remember my dreams. So happy and grateful to remember I love myself. So happy and grateful to feel inspired and excited about my life. So FUCKING HAPPY AND GRATEFUL IT'S FALL! So happy and grateful to feel confident and successful.

Wouldn't it be nice to follow through on a new big project? Wouldn't it be nice to spend time styling my site tonight? Wouldn't it be nice to think ONLY I Love Myself from Now On?! Wouldn't it be nice to have a singular focus on

I
Love
Myself

??

Wouldn't it be nice to hoop and play and have fun? Wouldn't it be nice to get some great photos taken of me? Wouldn't it be nice to get my

hair done
nails done
new tattoos
teeth whitened
led hoops
new house
new car
new camera
new computer
massage?!

Wouldn't it be nice to feel WILD CRAZY SUCCESSFUL? Wouldn't it be nice to feel WILD CRAZY IN LOVE WITH MYSELF? Wouldn't it be nice to feel absolutely over the moon about

my site
the SoLD site
new app project

I WANT

  • MANICURE
  • HAIR DONE
  • FOCUS ON I LOVE MYSELF
  • NEW COMPUTER
  • WEBSITE FINISHED
  • SoLD WEBSITE FINISHED/updated/amazing
  • more witch staple clothes: dress, comfy pants, skirts, necklace, hats, things on my head
  • to stop comparing myself to others
  • to have the best night of my life!
  • to make my best work / post my best video tonight!
  • to feel WILD CRAZY SUCCESS

Prepave! date night!
What's the best that could happen before?
ducks in a row! feel amazing!
What’s the best that could happen during?
magick! synchronicity! good photos!
How do you want to feel after?
VROOP VROOPIN IT. ready to make marvelous work! in love with myself!

I am a powerful witch. I command WILD CRAZY SUCCESS.
I am a powerful witch. I command MADLY IN LOVE WITH MYSELF.
I am a powerful witch. I command tattoos hair done and manicure!
I am a powerful witch. I command amazing photo shoots!

I've noticed I've been comparing myself to others and that's ok. I've noticed I feel like I desperately need to create and that's ok!

I've decided to feel good about my creative output. It's working itself out! I've decided to feel good about how successful I am. It's working itself out! I've decided to feel great about my websites. They're working themselves out! I've decided to feel good about my physical appearance. It's working itself out!!

I intend to have the best day of my life. I intend to do the work. I intend to LOVE MYSELF UNCONDITIONALLY WITH SINGULAR FOCUS!

I pray to stay sober today. I pray to let the flow through me and serve the greatest good. I pray to be the best version of myself I can be!

I'm switching to the version of reality I prefer. In the reality I Prefer, I am in the right place and the right time. I am doing everything right.

I love myself.
I don't give a fuck.
I live the magick life.
I am a powerful witch!

In the reality I prefer, I am wildly successful.
I am abundant and prosperous.
I am making my best work.
I already have everything I want.
Life already is the way I want it to be!

I love it when I do the work. I love it when I feel good about myself. I love it when it's fall! I love it when I have a good day. I love it when I let life live me. I love it when I work on my own shit. I love it when I feel successful. I love it when I have fun! I love it when Keke and I laugh and have fun together! I love it when life is fun! I love it when I'm present! I love it when I let go and it all works out!

Dear Jessica,
You are successful in this moment. You are here. You are present. WHat do you want?
To feel as successful as my inner self knows I am.
To feel flawless.
To feel madly in love with myself!

Jessica Mullen

Prosperity Plan Day 28

Jessica Mullen
So happy and grateful to be awake and alive! So happy and grateful to have time to write! So happy and grateful to feel excited about life! So happy and grateful to always have plenty. So happy and grateful to love myself and not give a fuck. So happy and grateful to live the magick life and be a powerful witch. So happy and grateful to remember Who I AM! So happy and grateful to have good music to listen to. So happy and grateful to have plenty of work. So happy and grateful to have inbox income. So happy and grateful to feel confident and excited to be me. So happy and grateful to let go of my resistance.

So happy and grateful to feel creative and inspired. So happy and grateful to have the perfect wife and perfect kitties and a perfect home. So happy and grateful to feel light and in the flow. So happy and grateful to feel healthy and at peace with what is. So happy and grateful to feel like a money magnet! So happy and grateful to have a place to move. So happy and grateful we found our city. So happy and grateful to surrender and let go.

So happy and grateful to have internet and water and plumbing and a fridge and a kitchen and a big ol bed. SO happy and grateful I always get what I want. So happy and grateful it's cooling off. So happy and grateful to have books to read. SO happy and grateful to feel energized and optimistic! So happy and grateful to be focused and in the habit of doing my habits. So happy and grateful to have things I want to do. So happy and grateful to feel strong and fit. SO happy and grateful we get to have fun!

Wouldn't it be nice to have the best day of my life? Wouldn't it be nice to let life live me? Wouldn't it be nice to feel brave and courageous? Wouldn't it be nice to help? Wouldn't it be nice to record my best video yet? Wouldn't it be nice to go to sleep feeling accomplished and successful? Wouldn't it be nice to play and dance and remember to NOT GIVE A FUCK!

Wouldn't it be nice to make my best work? Wouldn't it be nice if my work was easy and fun? Wouldn't it be nice to stick to my diet and habits for the next month? Wouldn't it be nice to work on music? Wouldn't it be nice to follow through on some new projects? Wouldn't it be nice to get good news? Wouldn't it be nice to trip and feel enlightened? Wouldn't it be nice to feel enlightened without drugs? Wouldn't it be nice to receive positive attention? Wouldn't it be nice to feel successful?!?!?!?!

I WANT

  • to feel successful
  • to feel the best I've ever felt!
  • to transcend my mind and stop worrying!
  • to record my best video yet
  • to be enlightened like Buddha
  • to LET GO of my annoying thoughts: no more WONDERING.
  • KNOWING
  • MASSAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • effortless fun work
  • to be in a good mood!

Prepave! ToNiGhT
What's the best that could happen before?
Good mood! Walking. Counting. Drawing. Reading. Feeing my Self.

What’s the best that could happen during?
Easy Fun Flow Knowing Laughter But Of Course My Path Is Lighting Up For Me

How do you want to feel after?
SUCCESSFUL. Present.

I am a powerful witch. I command a great mood to enter me now! I am LiGhT!
I am a powerful witch. I command myself to TRANSCEND thought. I am PResenT.
I am a powerful witch. I command KNOWING. I KNOW What TO DO.
I am a powerful witch. I command SinGulAR FoCUS! I am focused on what I want and what I want more of. I am focused on transcending thought. I am focused in the present moment.

I've noticed I'm crabby and that's ok. I've noticed I'm pissed and that's ok. I've noticed I'm blaming shit outside of me for my mood. I've noticed I feel like I can't stop worrying and doubting and that's ok. I've noticed I feel lazy and that's ok. I've noticed I feel annoyed and that's ok!

I've decided to feel good about worrying. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about my creative output. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about phone calls. They're working themselves out. I've decided to feel good about this day. It's working itself out!

Today I intend to be present. I intend to transcend thought. I intend to feel pleasure. I intend to be kind to myself and others. I intend to enjoy my life the way it is. I intend to follow through on my chosen habits and projects. I intend to be impeccable. I intend to have integrity. I intend to be light!

I intend to focus my attention! I intend to make my best work! I intend to love myself! I intend to not give a fuck! I intend to be the best version of myself I can be! I intend to be in a great mood! I intend to be at peace with how I currently feel! I've noticed I feel blah and that's ok!

I pray to stay sober today. I pray to be light. I pray to not give a fuck. I pray for this family shit to get better. I pray for solutions. I pray to GET
MONEY
MOTHER
FUCKERS

I'm switching to the version of reality I prefer. In the reality I prefer, I am making my best work. My cats are happy and healthy. I am in love with my life. My family shit is working itself out. I am at peace with what is. I am letting go of my worries. I am transcending thought. I am becoming lighter by the moment. I am letting life live me. I don't give a fucK!

In the reality I prefer, I love myself.
I don't give a fuck.
I am a powerful witch.
I live the magick life!

In the reality I prefer, life is taking care of me. Whatever it is, is a solution. Everything happens for a reason. I am letting go of my worries. I am stepping into the present moment. In the present moment, everything is fun and there's nothing to worry about!

I love it when I start feeling inspired. I love it when I choose to direct my thoughts. I love it when I focus on counting. I love it when I get the fuck out of my own way!

I love it when I let go. I love it when I transcend thought. I love it when I feel good about myself! I love it when I evolve! I love it when I let life be fun!

Dear Jessica,
Relax and let it be easy. What do you want?

To Do Me
To Feel Confident
To Remember Who I am in Every Moment!
To Make My Best Work!
To Create For Me Not Likes!
To get the fuck off social media!
To feel SUCCESSFUL!

Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – Choose Your 4 Favorite Thoughts


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Breathe in and raise your vibration
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Let your worries go.

Breathe in and open up to receiving
Breathe out and smile because life is not serious!

Allow your mind to slow down. Let your mind become still.

Breathe in and step into your power as the creator!
Breathe out and remember your mood is your work

When you feel good, you attract better-feeling thoughts. You manifest better-feeling experiences. You become a magnet to good things.

Breathe in and decide to feel good today!
Breathe out and let go of your worries! Let go of your fears!

Let go of your resistance. This is the right place and the right time. You’re doing everything right. Every moment ever created led up to right now, this moment right here!

Breathe in and celebrate because you’re alive right now!
Breathe out and let go of your worries about death and getting things done and sickness and money

It’s all going to work itself out! What if you could feel good regardless of your circumstances—regardless of whether you’re dead or alive?!

Breathe in and decide to feel good whether you’re dead or alive!
Breathe out and let yourself choose: are you dead or alive?

Breathe in and be still
Breathe out and listen for the answers

Allow yourself to step into your magick powers right now. You are a powerful witch. You are god in human form. Your thoughts are creating your reality!!!

Breathe in and focus your attention
Breathe out and decide what thoughts you want to think

What reality do you want to be living? My favorite thoughts are:

I love myself
I don’t give a fuck
I live the magick life
I am a powerful witch

Decide to choose your four favorite thoughts that you want to be true today. Let them be your mantra. Let them create the reality you want to live in.

Breathe in and embrace your power!
Breathe out and let go of your doubts and your worries!

You are as powerful as you want to be.

Breathe in and step into the present moment where all of your power lies
Breathe out and wake up in the dream!

You are now lucid in the dream. Whatever you decide to be true, is true.

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I don’t give a fuck

Breathing in I live the magick life
Breathing out I am a powerful witch!

Breathe in and let your power come to you
Breathe out and feel confident in your role as the creator!

This life is just for fun! If you could have anything you wanted today, what would it be? You can be general if you don’t know the specifics. You can just say, “I want to have the best day of my life,” or “I want to make my best work,” or “I want to feel the best I’ve ever felt.” Whatever you want, ask for it now and know it is on the way.

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I don’t give a fuck

Breathing in I live magick life
Breathing out I am a powerful witch!

And so are you!

Jessica Mullen

Prosperity Plan Day 26

Jessica Mullen
So happy and grateful to be awake and alive! So happy and grateful to be here now! So happy and grateful to be writing! So happy and grateful to feel inspired and excited about life! So happy and grateful to have money for groceries and bills! So happy and grateful to have a plaN! So happy and grateful to have a beautiful new site! SO happy and grateful to have clients! So happy and grateful to have tax savings! So happy and grateful to always have plenty! So happy and grateful to feel pain free today! So happy and grateful to have happy healthy kitties! So happy and grateful to have the best wife in the world! So happy and grateful to feel at peace with what is!

So happy and grateful to wake up feeling good. So happy and grateful we get to borrow a car. So happy and grateful business is booming. So happy and grateful life is taking care of me. So happy and grateful our websites get better every day. So happy and grateful to feel like a star. So happy and grateful to love myself and not give a fuck!

So happy and grateful to be in control of my vibration. So happy and grateful to feel loved and supported. SO happy and grateful to feel the best I've ever felt! SO happy and grateful to have beautiful weather. So happy and grateful to feel connected to spirit. SO happy and grateful to love cooking and have plenty to cook. So happy and grateful I can have anything I want delivered to my doorstep! So happy and grateful it's my favorite season. So happy and grateful to feel good in my body today!

Wouldn't it be nice to have the best day of my life? Wouldn't it be nice to lighten up and have fun? Wouldn't it be nice to trust the process of life and say yes? Wouldn't it be nice to go to Spirit? Wouldn't it be nice to have a new halloween wardrobe?

Wouldn't it be nice to get a technology upgrade? Wouldn't it be nice to get an iphone 7 and a brand new mac and a new DSLR? Wouldn't it be nice to have a space to hang my swing in the new house? Wouldn't it be nice if that house buying stuff was a flawless victory? Wouldn't it be nice to feel confident and brave and bold? Wouldn't it be nice if Kerri called me back?

Wouldn't it be nice to have everyone together for thanksgiving? Wouldn't it be nice to have singular focus? Wouldn't it be nice to play and laugh and have fun? Wouldn't it be nice to hoop?????????????

I WANT

  • a more deliberate/dedicated hooping practice
  • all the fam together for thanksgiving
  • effortless and fun client work
  • to make 2k this week
  • to run on a treadmill/have a running practice
  • for everything with CLE to work out perfectly
  • to finish up the styling on my site
  • to have and be fun
  • to laugh at jokes
  • to be BRAVE and BOLD and make GROUNDBREAKING work!

Prepave! Sunday Funday
What's the best that could happen before?
Ducks in a row. Counting to 10,000.
What’s the best that could happen during?
Blissful walk. Blissful talk. Blissful wife. Blissful life.
How do you want to feel after?
Empowered. Ready. Organized. Abundant. Prosperous. Powerful!

I am a powerful witch. I command 2k to flow my way this week.
I am a powerful witch. I command singular focus on silent counting.
I am a powerful witch. I command effortless and fun client work.
I am a powerful witch. I command freedom from addiction!

I've noticed I'm hungry and that's ok. I've noticed I'm worried and that's ok. I've noticed I'm meddling and that's ok. I've noticed I wish I loved myself more and that's ok!

I've decided to feel good about worrying. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about my choices. They're working themselves out. I've decided to feel good about meddling. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about how much I love myself. It's working itself out!

Today I intend to have singular focus. Today I intend to do the work. Today I intend to love myself more than ever. I intend to let go of my resistance. I intend to play and have fun. I intend to celebrate and feel good.

Today I intend to make my best work. I intend to love myself. I intend to not give a fuck. I intend to be conscious and aware. I intend to be compassionate and kind. I intend to allow well being to flow. I intend to be the best version of me I can be.

I pray to stay sober today. I pray to be light. I pray to love and be loved. I pray for flow and focus. I pray to serve the greatest good.

I'm switching to the version of reality I prefer. In the reality I prefer, I am in the right place at the right time. I am doing everything right. I am one with life. I am at peace with what is. I don't give a fuck! I am letting go of my resistance. I am free!

In the reality I prefer, I am allowing life to live me. I am letting go of my worries. I have a singular focus on the inner supply. I am doing my best. I am light. I am free. I am so happy to be me.

I love myself.
I don't give a fuck.
I live the magick life.
I am a powerful witch!

I love it when I do the work. I love it when I write my spells. I love it when I focus my attention. I love it when I don't give a fuck!

Dear Jessica,
It's all for you. Listen for the flow, it is always there. Let life take care of the details. Focus on You and Doing You and Being You. You already are perfect the way you are.

Stay Open

Daily Meditation – Stay Open


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Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Relax your body.

Breathe in and say yes!
Breathe out and say thank you!

This is the best day of your life! Take this moment right now as an opportunity to flip your perspective. You can choose to have the best day of your life, right now!

Breathe in and say yes!
Breathe out and say thank you!

Allow yourself to calm down, to let your thoughts go. You don’t need to worry. It doesn’t help anything. You are free to step outside of your mind, into the present moment where everything is fun and there’s nothing to worry about!

Breathe in and open yourself up to receiving!
Breathe out and stay open! It’s your choice whether you stay open or not.

You’re either open or closed. When you’re open, the flow of life is flowing through you. Solutions are coming and you feel great! When you’re closed, you don’t feel so good and block off the energy and the solutions. Choose right now, to open!

Breathe in and open up!
Breathe out and stay open!

When you’re open, you say yes. When you’re open, you surrender to what is.

Breathe in and say yes!
Breathe out and say thank you!

This is the right place and the right time. You’re doing everything right. Let yourself relax and enjoy where you are.

Breathe in and say “I love myself even though I make mistakes!”
Breathe out and say “I don’t give a fuck! I don’t give a fuck about that mistake! Who cares! It doesn’t matter!”

Breathe in and say I love myself
Breathe out and say I love myself

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I don’t give a fuck

Tiny little things can start to rub you the wrong way throughout your day. What if you said “I don’t give a fuck” to every single one? What if you took nothing personally? What if you let life be easy today?

Breathe in and smile because you can let life be easy today!
Breathe out and decide to really love yourself the way you are today.

You’ve come so far! You’re doing such good work! You’re helping so many people. Everything is going to work out for you today.

Breathe in and remember everything happens for a reason!
Breathe out and decide to have a singular focus on feeling good today.

Whatever it takes, decide you’re going to feel good today regardless of what happens, regardless of your circumstances.

Breathe in and decide to feel good today
Breathe out and feel lighter already!

Let yourself step into this moment. Outside of your thoughts. Outside of your worries.

Breathe in and say YES!
Breathe out and say thank you!

Enter the present moment, where the answers are. You can enter the present moment just by opening. Just by saying yes. Just by surrendering. In the present moment, you are safe. In the present moment, there are no problems.

Breathe in and let the solutions come to you because you’re open!
Breathe out and surrender.

Let go of your worries. Let go of your fears. Let go of your criticisms and judgements. Open up to the fact that you are god in human form and this is the best day of your life.

Breathing in I love myself
Breathing out I don’t give a fuck!

Breathing in I live the magick life!
Breathing out I am open!

Sunset

Prosperity Plan Day 25

Sunset
So happy and grateful to be awake and alive! SO happy and grateful to be in the right place at the right time! So happy and grateful to feel light and not give a fuck! So happy and grateful to always have plenty! So happy and grateful to feel good now! So happy and grateful I can choose to enjoy my life regardless of my circumstances! So happy and grateful it's FALL! So happy and grateful I can choose to feel however I want to feel! I want to feel GREAT! And so it is!

So happy and grateful to always have the perfect weather. So happy and grateful to love where I live and who I live with. So happy and grateful to feel strong and enthusiastic. So happy and grateful to feel healthy and in the flow! So happy and grateful to be making space in my mind. So happy and grateful to be back to counting. So happy and grateful to feel the best I've ever felt! So happy and grateful to feel good NOW!

So happy and grateful life loves me! So happy and grateful to be at peace with what is! So happy and grateful to be making my best work! So happy and grateful to LET GO! SO happy and grateful to always have exactly what I need right in front of me. So happy and grateful to be writing and meditating and doing the work! So happy and grateful it's getting easier to work out! So happy and grateful to feel good about my hair and nails and body and smile and teeth! SO happy and grateful to feel fit and athletic! So happy and grateful to let the flow through me! So happy and grateful to be open and to SURRENDER!

So happy and grateful it's the solstice! So happy and grateful to feel whole and full! SO happy and grateful to feel good about myself today! So happy and grateful to be so in love! So happy and grateful to have the best relationships! SO happy and grateful everything is working out with my family!

So happy and grateful to have plenty of money to do everything I want! So happy and grateful I can choose to focus on light and freedom! So happy and grateful I can let life live me! So happy and grateful I can choose to have and be fun!

So happy and grateful to be creating and be inspired every day. So happy and grateful to be taking my best photos. So happy and grateful my website is coming along perfectly! SO happy and grateful to have new music to listen to! So happy and grateful to be making music! So happy and grateful I can afford new electronics! SO happy and grateful to have plenty of dining options!

So happy and grateful to feel abundant and prosperous.

Wouldn't it be nice to have the best night of my life? Wouldn't it be nice to run on a treadmill? Wouldn't it be nice to DO ME? Wouldn't it be nice to make my best video yet? Wouldn't it be nice to feel loved and appreciated? Wouldn't it be nice to love and appreciate? Wouldn't it be nice to get along and have fun? Wouldn't it be nice to feel even more in love?

Wouldn't it be nice to get a new computer and camera and phone and house and car lmao? Wouldn't it be nice to let those things go and trust they're coming? Wouldn't it be nice to enter the present moment and rest there?

I WANT

  • a good day
  • affection
  • love
  • to feel energized
  • to trust the process of life
  • to know I'm doing everything right
  • to feel relief
  • to let go of my anger and rage
  • to OPEN and RELEASE all that built up shit
  • to be present and have fun!

Prepave! Friday friday friday
What's the best that could happen before?
good mood! energy! fun! love!

What’s the best that could happen during?
COUNTING TO 10000.

How do you want to feel after?
VROOPVROOPIN IT

I am a powerful witch. I command the best day of my life!
I am a powerful witch! I command magick life!
I am a powerful witch! I command energy and love!

I've noticed I'm crabby and that's ok. I've noticed I'm pissed and that's ok. I've noticed I'm blaming others and that's ok. I've noticed I am ANGRY and MAD and that's ok. I've noticed I want to let go and that's ok!

I've decided to feel good about repressed anger and rage. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about the places where I am closed. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about this day. It's working itself out!!!!

I intend to have the best day of my life!
I intend to be light and fun and free!
I intend to DO ME!
I intend to FOCUS and feel the best I've ever felt!
I intend to be kind and compassionate!
I intend to let go of the pain I hold onto!
I intend to not give a fuck!
I intend to love myself!

I pray to stay sober today. I pray to let this anger go. I pray everything works out. I pray to be kinder and more compassionate. I pray to know the right thing to do.

I'm switching to the version of reality I prefer. In the reality I prefer, I am in the right place at the right time. I am doing everything right. I am free. I am in the flow. I am opening and RELEASING. I am releasing all that stored crap. I am releasing all the stored pain. All the unfinished energy. All the pain. I am releasing. I am open. I am releasing.

I love it when I write. I love it when I do me. I love it when I do the work. I love it when I follow through. I love it when I get what I want!

Dear Jessica,
You always get what you want. It's up to you to discern it!