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The 30 days of all raw food with no alcohol or caffeine have been paying off! We are on day 28 of raw & 29 of no alcohol or caffeine. This challenge was so rewarding, we’re going for another 30 days! Log in for 4 lovely topless porch pix.
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I woke at 6 this morning and made my way out onto the porch for some sunrise relaxation. Log in for three pretty pictures :]
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I’m doing away with most of my so-called “premium content,” but still using it for hott pix. So, if you want to pay me $9 a month to support my creative endeavors, you can see me naked, and possibly hear some secrets. Fair trade? I think so. Log in and enjoy! Thanks to Ariel and Natalie for setting my head straight with premium content
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Thanks for logging in to check these out :] Let me know if you like them! I always wanted to be a prostitute or a stripper. Now Kel & I are thinking camgirls. Scandalous!
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[recorded 5.11.10 | duration: 00:09:21 | Subscribe in iTunes]
A trip to the greenbelt helped us see the light: we’re staying in Austin! Next up: my dad telling me to take down everything I’ve ever put online about myself. Lastly, a lot of discussion about how I want to move forward with tarot & meditation. How can I combine teaching lifestreaming with tarot card readings, meditation & alternate realities? Would you like a free reading?
Log in to watch a confessional-esque video about the bad shit that’s been going down lately. Or is this a pre-show positivity pep talk? [Duration: 00:09:34 | recorded: 5.11.10].
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[recorded 4.25.10 | duration: 00:07:36 | Subscribe in iTunes]
When the last thing in my lifestream feed is a video about me being depressed, it makes sense for me to continue being depressed. Would daily videos help me be depressed less frequently? I also talk a little more about the Internet as a divination tool, stress as contributing to depression, and how scared I am of this marathon we’re running this weekend. How will we ever finish on time??
Finally, I want to give a big thank you to everyone who has reached out about depression. Takeaway idea: thoughts are just things! Let them go.
Log in to watch a video about what I think the real reason behind my depression is. [Duration: 00:03:08 | recorded: 4.25.10].
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[recorded 4.15.10 | duration: 00:09:22 | Subscribe in iTunes]
Today I talk about what I learned and what I massively screwed up while printing & hanging my lifestream for the MFA exhibition. I also want to give a HUGE THANK YOU to my darling @kellycree for helping me SO MUCH with this process. Without her I would have bloody stumps for fingers and a very unhappy existence.
Log in to watch a quick story about which body part NOT to aim for when testing a staple gun. [Duration: 00:00:34 | recorded: 4.15.10].
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What if everyone had a public, physical record of their experiences connected to their physical bodies? What if we could know a person’s history and current struggles at a glance? Would we be more understanding and forgiving? I think so, and I think it’s the direction lifestreaming is taking us.
Log in to watch today’s video journal about witchery, transcending reality, and lifestreaming for world peace. [Duration: 00:08:21 | recorded: 3.26.10].
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This post was written during a spell of depression, which has since lifted. But I am hoping to cut back on the selfishness every day!
I have no idea how to help people without thinking of how it will help me.
I am a selfish, self-centered, narcissist. I think I figure things out one day, but then the next I am struck with a crippling depression. I have an experience that teaches me the true nature of reality, yet I still want only to worry about my own selfish needs and desires.
My desire to turn my life into money is a disease.
I just want to make enough money to live comfortably doing what I love. And what I love is sharing my life online. It helps me solve my problems and gives me inspiration, motivation, and accountability. But it does not really pay the bills, because no one wants to pay to know everything about me. Nor do they have the time to learn. I am constantly trying to commodify my experiences, but it is not working.
No one wants unsolicited advice
Sometimes, I learn things that make my life easier. I immediately try to turn them into sage bits of wisdom that I think everyone should know. But no one asked me, and few people want to hear it. Who do I think I’m talking to?
Log in to watch a video journal about new wrinkles, making money, and the detrimental effects of bragging online. [duration 00:06:50 | recorded 3.25.10].
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mood: I was in tears before we left the house. I blame hormones. We were both feeling shitty as hell. We drove to the gym because it was cold and rainy. After a few laps, we were both feeling good again. Out of all the antidepressants I’ve tried in my life, running is the number one most effective mood elevator.
nutrition: Fruit salad and a magic pellet almost 2 hours before. We brought 5 dates and 2 magic pellets and some salty watery orange juice to eat while there. The magic pellets are so energizing but one must be very careful not to eat too much of one at once, because they can cause cramps. The dates we ate towards the end, and combined with one last pellet bite were excellent recovery food.
weather: shitty!
conversation: Lately, we have been making huge life changes during our long Saturday runs. Sometimes it’s a new idea for a project, sometimes it’s eliminating something else from our lives. It is said that a design is complete when you can’t remove anything else. In life design, we are constantly removing the things that we don’t need. Yesterday, we decided to quit our last chemical dependency. If you want to hear all about it, log in to watch the videos below. I FEEL AMAZING NOW.
effort: 3/5. Once we got going, it was easy. My knees hurt a little. Need those damn Vibrams.
Log in to watch two videos about the ENORMOUS LIFE CHANGE we made yesterday. [duration 00:09:20 & 00:02:18].
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A printed lifestream is like a trail behind you. You can see everyone’s in lifefuckcity. Your mobile device is your connection to individuality, to your physical self. Lifestreaming is a way for your physical self to prepare, remember, and know. It can be a map, or a ticket. Technology is a shoddy hack, but it will bring you faster to the realization that EVERY DECISION MATTERS. And everyone knows.
Log in to read about my weekend trip and why it’s making me cry to write this. Included is a video journal on the same topic. [Duration: 00:05:02 | Recorded: 3.8.10]
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The massive realization I came to is dripping out of me like sand. I can’t catch it, I can’t keep up, I can’t make myself remember more. He said it’s like a dream and that’s how it escapes…
This physical reality we exist in is important, and it is also the trip. But I am obsessed with thinking about what comes next, what lies beyond, what has been revealed to me.
It seemed everything in my life aligned at once on Saturday night, around 8:30pm. All the exercise, healthy eating, meditation, cutting out alcohol and caffeine… even the hair dye. They all seemed integral to the experience. As if I wouldn’t be strong enough or resilient enough to handle it otherwise.
I have never experienced something so positively mind-altering and life changing as that. I can’t get the feeling back, I NEED TO GO BACK. How to reconcile this reality with that? My current solution is to treat this life as the trip that it is, and strive to reach LIFEFUCKCITY in every area of my life.
I’ve lost it. I’ve lost the feeling. It’s crushing me. It’s devastating. I came out of the trip feeling I’d just been let in on the greatest cosmic joke of them all. Now I can’t remember the punchline. I SAW IT. And it is gone.
I need to go back. My heart is breaking.
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