Category: Gathering Momentum

Fall

IT’S NOT UP TO ME!

Fall
So happy and grateful to be awake and alive! So happy and grateful to feel good about myself today! SO happy and grateful to have a snow day for working on my own shit! SO happy and grateful to feel better! So happy and grateful the work always works! So happy and grateful to not give a fuck! SO happy and grateful to love myself! So happy and grateful to wake up feeling good! So happy and grateful life loves me! So happy and grateful I can just relax into the pain! So happy and grateful I can choose to be fearless now! It's just pain!

SO happy and grateful to feel focused on DOING ME! SO happy and grateful to feel enthusiastic and inspired again! So happy and grateful to be making my best work! SO happy and grateful to have the best wife in the world! So happy and grateful to feel healthy and at peace with what is!

So happy and grateful to have two beautiful healthy kitties! So happy and grateful to always have plenty! SO happy and grateful to have perfect timing! SO happy and grateful it's getting easier to be present and conscious! So happy and grateful to finally realize IT'S NOT UP TO ME!

So happy and grateful to be working on my website! So happy and grateful to feel passionate again! So happy and grateful to have a plan! So happy and grateful to feel light and playful! So happy and grateful I get to choose what I focus on! So happy and grateful to like myself today! SO happy and grateful we get to go on a fun trip! So happy and grateful to have a wife to adventure with! So happy and grateful to have coffee and food in the fridge and nails to be painted! So happy and grateful to have money for domain names and flea medicine! So happy and grateful to have new windows and a new back door so the downstairs stays warm!!!

So happy and grateful to feel connected to source. So happy and grateful to have good music to listen to. So happy and grateful to like where I am. So happy and grateful I ALWAYS GET EVERYTHING I WANT!

What does huge abundance look like in these 4 areas? (Thanks Gala!)

Mental
Able to direct my thoughts and train my attention daily; mental discipline.
My videos are hugely satisfying, gratifying, helpful and transcendent.
I am hella into blogging!
I LOVE MY CREATIONS.
I work on my website every day.
The School of Life Design is creating new products, getting in new stores, getting more subscribers, and improving the website every month.

Emotional
I am able to transmute my negative emotions into heightened awareness.
I am able to relax into pain and not run from it.
I focus on loving myself and letting go of what I cannot control.
I am so in love with myself!
I feel good about myself!
I have friends who I love and adore and connect to when sober!

Physical
I look the way I want to look.
I wake up to payments, orders, passive income and payouts every day.
I make at least $4k net profit a month.
I keep up my fitness schedule.
I eat 90% vegan, 100% vegetarian.
I get massages weekly.
Baths weekly.
I am in perfect health!

Spiritual
Meditating daily.
I am TURNED ON.
I fly in my dreams.
I am IN THE FLOW.
My life is deep and psychedelic.
I am connected to source.
I am my reason for feeling good.
Magick is my drug!

Wouldn't it be nice if Movin wrote back? Wouldn't it be nice to feel confident about child themes? Wouldn't it be nice to finish styling single post views today? Wouldn't it be nice to make the cover image random? Wouldn't it be nice to sell a poster? Wouldn't it be nice to receive attention? Wouldn't it be nice to be so into myself I don't even care about my successes? WOuldn't it be nice to get lost in the flow of working on my site today? Wouldn't it be nice to post that new vid? Wouldn't it be nice to record that ad? Wouldn't it be nice to work on that song for F? Wouldn't it be nice to have the best trip to austin EVER? Wouldn't it be nice to see all my friends and have so much fun? Wouldn't it be nice if it was easy to stay sober? Wouldn't it be nice to feel so focused on loving myself that I don't care what other people are doing?!?!

I WANT

  • flow machine
  • go for a walk
  • make my best work
  • post my best video
  • traffic spike on our sites
  • have the most fun I've ever had
  • laugh at jokes
  • 10 new subs!
  • trust the process of life
  • be obsessed with loving myself and feeling good about myself and doing me!

Prepave! AUSTIN!
What's the best that could happen before?
Great mood! Get all my work done! Plenty of money! Cats are happy! Furnace is perfect! Eat well and work out! Feel confident and in love with myself and my life!

What’s the best that could happen during?
See everyone and feel so in love! Enjoy time with my parents! Eat amazing vegan food! Laugh and play with my friends! Feel joyful and connected! Make lots of money! Have the most fun I've ever had! Flawless travel! Feel HOT and TURNED ON and IN LOVE!

How do you want to feel after?
Creative! Inspired! In the flow! So into myself! SO IN LOVE WITH MYSELF!

Today I intend to have the best day of my life. I intend to make my best work. I Intend to feel good about myself! I intend to feel HOT and TURNED ON! I intend to feel light and in the flow. I intend to laugh at jokes. i intend to bask and flow and let go. I intend to be so focused on loving myself that I don't care what anyone else is doing!!

I pray to stay sober today.
I pray to feel good about myself.
I pray to love myself.
I pray to get better at this self love thing.
I pray to RADIATE LOVE.

I'm switching to the version of reality I prefer. In the reality I prefer, I am in the right place at the right time. I am doing everything right. I am making my best work. I am in the flow. I am at peace with what is. I am so in love with myself I don't care what anyone else is doing! Life is living me. Life is on my side. Life is fun!

I love it when I DO ME. I love it wheN I am so focused on loving myself I don't care what anyone else is doing!

Dear Jessica,
Congratulations! You've made it! You've figured it out! This is the meaning of life! Let it through you! It's . . .

LOVE!

Jessica Mullen

Come to Me

Jessica Mullen
So happy and grateful to be awake and alive! SO happy and grateful I can choose to focus on something else! So happy and grateful I can choose to not give a fuck! So happy and grateful I can lighten up and be fun! SO happy and grateful I can choose to love myself and count and feel good about myself! So happy and grateful I can let go of my demons! SO happy and grateful I can let this explosive anger GO! SO happy and grateful I can forget my worries and let life live me! So happy and grateful I can shut my mind the fuck up! So happy and grateful it's easy to feel good without alcohol! So happy and grateful to be blissful in my life and relationships! So happy and grateful I can direct my thoughts down new paths! So happy and grateful I can surrender my preferences!

So happy and grateful I can scream and shout and let it all out! So happy and grateful I can acknowledge how I Feel and LET IT THE FUCK GO!

So happy and grateful I can have and be fun! So happy and grateful I don't have to give a fuck about anything but how I feel! So happy and grateful I can let go of my anger and worries and MADNESS! So happy and grateful I can wild out and be the person I Want to be! SO happy and grateful NOTHING MATTERS! So happy and grateful I can let go of this anger! SO happy and grateful I Can be who I want to be! SO happy and grateful to BE A POWERFUL WITCH! SO happy and grateful I CAN LET LIFE LIVE ME! So happy and grateful I can trust the process of life!

SO happy and grateful to have a roof over my head and running water and new windows! So happy and grateful to feel loved and appreciated! So happy and grateful to feel good about myself today! SO happy and grateful to be making my best work!

SO happy and grateful I can choose to feel better! So happy and grateful I Can choose to not give a fuck! SO happy and grateful I Can choose to love myself!

I've noticed I feel like I'm going crazy and that's ok!
I've noticed I am unreasonably angry and irritable and that's ok!
I've noticed I'm pissed off and that's ok!
I've noticed I am filled with dread and that's ok!
I've noticed I am so fucking annoyed with myself and that's ok!
I've noticed I am so fucking bored and that's ok!
I've noticed I Want to Drink until I black out and that's OK!
I've noticed I want to fuck up my whole life and that's ok!
I've noticed I want to destroy everything and that's ok!
I've noticed I want to explode and that's ok!
I've noticed I want to FEEL BETTER and that's ok!
I've noticed I'm so mad at myself and that's ok!
I've noticed I still have so much self hate to let go and that's ok!
I've noticed I'm so tired of TRYING and that's ok!
I've noticed I feel so LAZY and that's ok!
I've noticed I want someone to FIX ME and that's ok!
I've noticed I don't want to take responsibility for how I feel and that's ok!
I've noticed I am freaking out and that's ok!
I've noticed I am filled and wrath and that's ok!
I've noticed I NEED A RELEASE AND THAT'S OK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've decided to feel good about freaking out! It's working itself out! I've decided to feel good about how mad I am! It's working itself out! I've decided to feel good about self hate! It's working itself out! I've decided to feel good about who I am! It's working itself out!!!!!!!!

Wouldn't it be nice to pull it together?! Wouldn't it be nice to get back to that good mood I had yesterday and the night before? Wouldn't it be nice to feel better?! Wouldn't it be nice if my computer stopped fucking lagging?! Wouldn't it be nice to get a new computer and phone? Wouldn't it be nice to jump in the abyss?! Wouldn't it be nice to let the fuck go? Wouldn't it be nice to love myself? Wouldn't it be nice to let go of this anger?! Wouldn't it be nice to speak up?! Wouldn't it be nice to say what I need to say?! Wouldn't it be nice to DO ME?! Wouldn't it be nice to let my shit work itself out?! Wouldn't it be nice to feel good in my body?! Wouldn't it be nice to let life live me and stop thinking about all this fucking bullshit?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

I WANT

  • to feel better on my own!
  • to take the easy way out!
  • to let go of this depression!
  • to get that good mood back!
  • to stop beating myself up!
  • to FEel better!!!!!!!!!!
  • to LET GO!
  • to find some new fucking music!
  • to feel attractive and good about myself!
  • to make my best work!
  • to like myself and my life the way it is!!!!!

Prepave! Caturday Adventure!
What's the best that could happen before?
I FEEL BETTER! I TAKE CARE OF MY SHIT! I DO ME! I FEEL BETTER! I FEEL BETTER! I FEEL BETTER! I FEEL BETTER! I LET THIS SHIT GO! I FOCUS ON WHAT I WANT! I FEEL BETTER! I FEEL BETTER! I FEEL BETTER! I AM MAKING MY BEST WORK! I FEEL BETTER! I FEEL BETTER! I FEEL BETTER! I AM HERE NOW! I AM TRANSCENDING MY FUCKING MIND!

What’s the best that could happen during?
FUN. Flow. Peace. I like where I am. I DO ME. I feel better. I feel better. I feel better. I feel good about myself. I choose to focus on WHAT I WANT. I choose to feel good. I choose to take responsibility for how I feel. I CHOOSE TO FEEL GOOD. I CHOOSE TO LIKE MY LIFE.

How do you want to feel after?
RELIEF. Good about myself.
I just want to feel good about myself.
I just want to feel good about myself.
I just want to feel good about myself.
I just want to feel good about myself.

I intend to have the best day of my life.
I intend to transmute my pain into heightened awareness.
I intend to make my best work.
I INTEND TO TRANSMUTE.
I intend to feel better.
I intend to FEEL GOOD ABOUT MYSELF.
I intend to enjoy my life the way it is.
I intend to FEEL BETTER!!!!!!
I intend to DO ME.
I intend to take care of myself.
I intend to think about what I WANT.
I intend to LET WHAT I WANT COME TO ME.
I intend to BE THE PERSON I WANT TO FUCKING BE.

I pray to stay sober today even though I REALLY FUCKING WANT TO DRINk i KNOw it's not going to help it can only blow up in my face.
I pray to feel good about myself.
I pray to make my best work. I pray to let the flow through me.
I pray life lives me.

I'm switching to version of reality I prefer. In the reality I prefer, I feel better.
I feel better.
I feel good about myself.
I am focused on being the person I want to be.
I feel good about myself.
I am in such a good mood!
I feel good about myself.
I am transmuting my contrast into heightened awareness.
I am transcending my mind.
I am at peace with what is.
I am blissful!
I feel good about myself and my life and my work.

I love it when I transmute my contrast. I love it when I take care of myself. I love it when I let life live me!

Dear Jessica,
Relax! It's all coming! Just get out of your own way!

Jessica Mullen

LOVE AND APPRECIATION

Jessica Mullen
So happy and grateful to be awake and alive! So happy and grateful to be OPEN TO RECEIVING. So happy and grateful to be letting what I want come to me. So happy and grateful to be in control of my vibration. So happy and grateful I don't have to give a fuck. So happy and grateful to feel better. So happy and grateful to be practicing loving myself. So happy and grateful life is getting easier to handle. SO happy and grateful to feel at peace with what is. So happy and grateful to be who I am. So happy and grateful to be making my best work. So happy and grateful to be allowing well being to flow. So happy and grateful to be the best version of myself I can be.

Wouldn't it be nice to have the best day of my life? Wouldn't it be nice if my computer stopped lagging? Wouldn't it be nice to feel better? Wouldn't it be nice to feel kind and compassionate and loving and appreciative? Wouldn't it be nice to let this rage out somehow? Wouldn't it be nice to feel lighthearted? Wouldn't it be nice to bask in my success? Wouldn't it be nice to let go of all this hate?

Wouldn't it be nice to be kind? Wouldn't it be nice to make my best work? Wouldn't it be nice to like what I write for this site more? Wouldn't it be nice to write more for this site? Wouldn't it be nice to have an article idea that has nothing to do with sobriety? Wouldn't it be nice to make some digital art? Wouldn't it be nice to draw and paint all day? Wouldn't it be nice to feel more focused? Wouldn't it be nice to feel less jealous? Wouldn't it be nice to feel better?!?!

Wouldn't it be nice to let go of my resistance? Wouldn't it be nice to stop battling my fucking thoughts? Wouldn't it be nice if it were easier to be the watcher? Wouldn't it be nice to surrender? Wouldn't it be nice to have some thoughts that always work? Wouldn't it be nice to feel better about myself?

Wouldn't it be nice to flip my perspective? Wouldn't it be nice to appreciate myself? Wouldn't it be nice to love myself? Wouldn't it be nice to feel better about myself? Wouldn't it be nice to feel loved and appreciated?? Wouldn't it be nice to feel like I'm on the right path? Wouldn't it be nice to finish that zine? Wouldn't it be nice to stop hating so much? Wouldn't it be nice to appreciate what I have?????

I WANT

  • to feel the relief alcohol can bring, without alcohol
  • to get a massage (let this go!)
  • to make my best work
  • to feel great about my website
  • to spend more time making art
  • to feel good about myself
  • to love and appreciate myself regardless of what other people think
  • to STOP LOOKING FOR EXTERNAL VALIDATION!!!!!!!!!!
  • to LOVE MYSELF
  • to LOVE WHAT I ALREADY HAVE and BE IN A GOOD MOOD!!!

Prepave! Walking adventure!
What's the best that could happen before?
Good mood! GOod mood! Good mood! love and appreciation! massage! feel good! Good mood!

What’s the best that could happen during?
Synchronicity and magick! Light! Free! Fun! Good conversation! Love and appreciatioN!

How do you want to feel after?
Invigorated! Ready to WORK ON MY SHIT! INSPIRED!

I am a powerful witch. I command
FUN and FLOW and LOVE and APPRECIATION!

I am a powerful witch. I command myself to stop caring about external validation!!

Today I intend to have the best day of my life. I intend to feel good today. I intend to enjoy my day. I intend to do the work MORE AND MORE AND MORE. I intend to make my most beautiful art. I INTEND TO MAKE SOME FUCKING ART!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I pray to stay sober today. I pray to feel better. I pray to feel good about myself. I pray loving myself gets easier. I pray accepting myself gets easier. I pray feeling good about myself gets easier. I pray everything works out for everyone!!

I'm switching to the version of reality I prefer. In the reality I prefer,
I love myself.
I don't give a fuck!
I am a powerful witch!
I live the magick life!

In the reality I prefer, I am making my best work right now already. I am already inspired, invigorated, motivated and in the flow. I am allowing well being to flow. I am entering receiving mode. I am open to receiving. I feel better. I feel better about myself. I feel good about myself. I am at peace with what is. Life already is the way I want it to be!

In the reality I prefer, everything is working out for everyone. I am focused. I am in the flow. I am focused on making my best work. I am making art! I am in the flow! I am focused on making art! I am focused on the flow!

Oh also I intend to take HELLA PHOTOS.

I love it when I do the work. I love it when I focus on directing my thoughts. I love it when I feel good about what I do with my time here. I love it when I feel good about myself. I love it when I flip my perspective. I love it when I feel better. I love it when I don't give a fuck. I love it when I feel wild! I love it when I feel loosened up without alcohol. I love it when I feel refreshed and invigorated! I LOVE IT WHEN I SHED MY FUCKING SKIN!

I love it when life works out. I love it when I let go of my fucking resistant thoughts!

Dear JEssica,
Breathe and relax. Just relax. Let it be easy. What you want is already in front of you. You are already making your best work. Trust the process of life. Trust the flow. Trust that what you need is already yours. Trust that it's all working out. Your contrast is creating! What is your contrast?

Not making enough. Not making enough art. Not spending enough time on my site. Spending too much time sleeping and scrolling. Feeling crabby at myself. Not loving myself the way I am.

What is the contrast making you ask for?

MY BEST WORK TO FLOW FORTH EFFORTLESSLY. And to love myself the way I am.

Jessica Mullen

I Love Myself

Jessica Mullen
So happy and grateful to be awake and alive! So happy and grateful the laundry is done. So happy and grateful we can afford grocery delivery! So happy and grateful the weather is so beautiful and romantic. So happy and grateful we worked out today! So happy and grateful to feel fit and energized! So happy and grateful my kitties are happy and healthy! So happy and grateful I'm healthy and in a good mood! SO happy and grateful to have the best wife in the world! So happy and grateful I get to cook so much! So happy and grateful to have a beautiful home in a perfect town. So happy and grateful to always have plenty.

SO happy and grateful to feel inspired and energized. SO happy and grateful to be in the right place at the right time. So happy and grateful to be making my best work. So happy and grateful to feel creative and inspired. So happy and grateful to be light and free!

So happy and grateful to find the perfect thing. SO happy and grateful to feel at peace with what is. So happy and grateful to have passive income! So happy and grateful to have clients! So happy and grateful to let go of my judgements. So happy and grateful to love myself and not give a fuck!!!

SO happy and grateful to have fun plans this month. So happy and grateful to feel at peace with what is. So happy and grateful to have things to look forward to. SO happy and grateful to love my life the way it is.

So happy and grateful to enjoy cooking so much. So happy and grateful to receive thousands of dollars every day! So happy and grateful to have such wonderful friendships! So happy and grateful to wake up feeling great! So happy and grateful to be letting go of my addictions! So happy and grateful to feel free!

SO happy and grateful to have beautiful music to listen to. So happy and grateful to feel stronger than ever. So happy and grateful to feel excited about this day! SO happy and grateful to feel my heart flutter with love and excitement!

So happy and grateful to relax. So happy and grateful to feel the flow. So happy and grateful to let what I want come to me. So happy and grateful to be a powerful witch! SO happy and grateful to get along with my family. SO happy and grateful to have plenty of time for everything I want to do. SO happy and grateful life is working out for me!

Wouldn't it be nice to have the best night of my life? Wouldn't it be nice to let go of my worries? Wouldn't it be nice to feel the best I've ever felt? Wouldn't it be nice to post my best video yet? Wouldn't it be nice to have the best website in the world? Wouldn't it be nice to laugh and play and have a delightful day?!

Wouldn't it be nice to have a singular focus on loving myself? Wouldn't it be nice to pick something and stick to it? Wouldn't it be nice to fly? Wouldn't it be nice to let go of my resistance? Wouldn't it be nice to do nice things for other people? Wouldn't it be nice to surrender and just let life live me??

I WANT

  • focus
  • to make my best work
  • to be in love with myself
  • to feel better and better as the day goes on
  • to laugh and play and love my life
  • effortless cooking
  • a GREAT MOOD
  • synchronicity
  • perfect timing
  • to be nice to myself!

Prepave! Tuesday N I G H T
What's the best that could happen before?
good mood. best work. feel better. feel great! love myself. like myself and my decisions and actions and thoughts.

What’s the best that could happen during?
love. love. love. love. relief. magick. synchronicity. letting go. SINGULAR FOCUS.

How do you want to feel after?
love.

I am a powerful witch. I command the best night of my life!
I am a powerful witch. I command my focus to be on UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!

Today I intend to have the best day of my life. I intend to be kind to myself. I intend to celebrate how far I've come. I intend to Stop Beating Myself Up!

I intend to let go of my worries. I intend to be brave. I intend to not give a fuck! I intend to love myself! I intend to make my best work! I intend to feel the best I've ever felt! I intend to be at peace with what is!

I pray to stay sober today. I pray to let go of my resistance. I pray to let life live me!

I'm switching to the version of reality I prefer. In the reality I prefer,
my website is amazing and I love it and I love the content I make.
I am in the right place at the right time and I'm doing everything right.
I am letting life live me.

In the reality I prefer, I love myself. I am nice to myself. I take care of myself. I am present. I let go of my worries. I let go of my doubts and fears. I choose to focus on what I Want and what I want more of. I choose to ask WHO AM I. I go within. I am at peace with what is. I am letting life live me!

I love it when I do the work. I love it when I don't give a fuck. I love it when I love myself. I love it when I'm nice to myself! I love it when I have a trip mindset in daily life. I love it wheN I choose to have a good day and then I do!

Dear Jessica,
Let go and breathe. You are trying so hard, how about allowing? You know what you want. Let go and trust it is already yours. The love you seek is already inside of you!

Jessica Mullen

I Am Already Free

Jessica Mullen
So happy and grateful I can choose to switch my perspective.
So grateful to be in perfect health.
So happy and grateful to feel good now.
So happy and grateful to have tea.
So happy and grateful to always have plenty.
So happy and grateful to love myself and not give a fuck.
SO happy and grateful to be doing me and working on my own shit.
So happy and grateful to have new music to listen to.
So happy and grateful to choose to stay OPEN.
So happy and grateful to choose to release.

So happy and grateful it's caturday. So happy and grateful to be in the right place at the right time, making my best work. So happy and grateful to feel the best I've ever felt! So happy and grateful I get to choose to let go. So happy and grateful to choose to be unconditionally happy. So happy and grateful it's up to me.

So happy and grateful to have a peaceful home. So happy and grateful Pwny got a new bed. So happy and grateful to let go of my negativity. SO happy and grateful to be in control of my attention. So happy and grateful to be choosing to DO ME.

So happy and grateful to feel better. So happy and grateful to have a new point of focus. So happy and grateful to be choosing to focus on what's working. So happy and grateful to let go of my HATE.

Wouldn't it be nice to have the best day of my life? Wouldn't it be nice to feel better? Wouldn't it be nice to break free? Wouldn't it be nice to lighten up? Wouldn't it be nice to know what to do next? Wouldn't it be nice if my path lit up for me? Wouldn't it be nice to play and laugh and feel good?

Wouldn't it be nice to be true to myself? Wouldn't it be nice to let go? Wouldn't it be nice to be the best version of myself? Wouldn't it be nice to be treated better? Wouldn't it be nice to get a massage? Wouldn't it be nice to be open to meeting new people? Wouldn't it be nice to write music? Wouldn't it be nice to let go?

Wouldn't it be nice to make some art? Wouldn't it be nice to lighten up and not give a fuck!

I WANT

  • an apology
  • a massage
  • to let go
  • to get better at opening
  • to meet new people
  • to go DO ME
  • to make my best work
  • to enjoy my life
  • to train my focus AWAY FROM DISTURBANCE
  • to TRANSCEND

Prepave! caturday NIGHT
What's the best that could happen before?
let go of my hurt. lean into the pain. scream it into art. be brave. have fun. laugh. feel better. stop letting other people affect how i feel. FOREVER. be my reason for feeling good.

What’s the best that could happen during?
get obsessed with my art. follow through. art art art. transmute, transform, make new.

How do you want to feel after?
cleansed. in control of my vibration. like i have value. and worth. like i'm good for something. in love with myself and my creation.

I am a powerful witch. I command effortless art to flow from my fingertips.
I am a powerful witch. I command myself to LET GO of the disturbances and lean into the pain.
I am a powerful witch. I command the best night of my life!

I've noticed I'm pissed off and that's ok.
I've noticed I am feeling sensitive and that's ok.
I've noticed I want to drink and that's ok.
I've noticed I feel so angry and that's ok.
I've noticed I want to transmute and that's ok.
I've noticed I feel helpless and trapped and that's ok!

I've decided to feel good about the pain. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about this day. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about who I am. I'm working myself out. I've decided to feel good about my art. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about where I am in life. It's working itself out!

I intend to have the best day of my life. I intend to be my reason for feeling good. I intend to lighten up and not give a fuck. I intend to do me. I intend to make my best work. I intend to be creative and have great ideas. I intend to be still. I intend to lean into the pain. I intend to let go of experiences as they happen. I intend to release trapped energy. I intend to love myself today. I intend to go with the flow. I intend to not give a fuck!!!!

I pray to stay sober today. I pray to feel better. i Pray to be my reason for feeling good. I pray to let go of my personal turmoil. I pray to transcend the fucking mind!

I'm switching to the version of reality I prefer. In the reality I prefer, life is working out for me. I am in the right place at the right time. Everything is perfect and in its place. Life is as it should be. Life is perfect the way it is. I am letting life live me. I am at peace with what is. I am doing everything right.

In the reality I prefer, I love myself. I don't give a fuck. I live the magick life. I am a powerful witch!

In the reality I prefer, I am doing everything right. I am releasing my worries, my anger, my disturbances. I am free to transcend. I am free. I am the watcher. The one who watches is ALREADY FREE. I am already free.

I love it when I do the work. I love it when I feel good. I love it when I let go of my anger. I love it when I let life live me. I love it when I take care of myself and eat well and exercise and write and meditate. I love it when I feel good about life. I love it when I surrender. I love it when I don't care. I love it when I release. I love it when I stay open. I love it when I feel inspired. I love it when I DO ME.

Dear Jessica,
Relax. This is the right time. This is the right place. It's all how it should be. Do whatever you can to enjoy it. What if this was your last night on earth?

Jessica Mullen

Emotional Freedom

Jessica Mullen
So happy and grateful to be emotionally free! So happy and grateful to have emotional freedom! SO happy and grateful for great sex! So happy and grateful for my beautiful perfect wife! SO happy and grateful to feel the best I've ever felt! So happy and grateful it's October! So happy and grateful for the beautiful weather! So happy and grateful to be at peace with what is! So happy and grateful to have a new/old technique to bring back! So happy and grateful to feel good about my life today! SO happy and grateful to feel like I have a solution!

SO happy and grateful to have good music to listen to! SO happy and grateful to love myself! SO happy and grateful to not give a fuck! SO happy and grateful to be a powerful witch! SO happy and grateful to live the magick life! SO happy and grateful to feel at peace with what is!

So happy and grateful to feel energized and focused. So happy and grateful to be in the flow. So happy and grateful to let go of my worries! So happy and grateful to be resolving ancient issues! So happy and grateful to feel light and free! So happy and grateful life is taking care of me!

Wouldn't it be nice to have the best day of my life? Wouldn't it be nice to find some good music that wasn't about drinking and drugs? Wouldn't it be nice to play some music today? Wouldn't it be nice to make my best work today? Wouldn't it be nice to make huge progress on Cult of Counting today? Wouldn't it be nice to write a lot for it today? Wouldn't it be nice to get a big payment today? Wouldn't it be nice to do EFT every day? Wouldn't it be nice if it really was the solution I've been searching for?

Wouldn't it be nice to let go of my worries and just float downstream? Wouldn't it be nice to feel really energized and inspired to work? Wouldn't it be nice to
- work on CoC - write and get 10 more grids done
- go on a walk
- feel calm and patient and in love
- do EFT whenever I notice a disturbance
- record my best video yet
- make a little progress on my site
- ship our orders
- and have the best day of my life?!

I WANT

  • massage
  • to be kind to myself and float downstream
  • to feel brave and courageous!
  • to receive so much positive attention
  • to follow through on CoC
  • to make music!
  • to get 20k today
  • to be so madly in love with myself!
  • to feel adored by myself and others
  • to hoop! and play! and laugh!

Prepave! Thursday Workday
What's the best that could happen before?
in love with myself! resolving life long issues!

What’s the best that could happen during?
effortless working on my work! knowing! path lighting up for me! work doing itself!

How do you want to feel after?
magickal! powerful! SO FUCKING RELIEVED I HAVE DEALT WITH MY DISTURBANCES

I am a powerful witch. I command the best day of my life!
I am a powerful witch! I command my best work to be produced today!
I am a powerful witch! I command focus and completion!

I've noticed I feel lazy and that's ok. I've noticed I worry about what other people think and that's ok. I've noticed I wish I would work out more and that's ok. I've noticed I want to get fucked up and that's ok! I've noticed I care about what other people think and that's ok!!

I intend to have the best day of my life. I intend to make my best work. I intend to go with the flow. I intend to float downstream. I intend to laugh and play! I intend to be light and carefree! I intend to practice eft! I intend to neutralize my energy disturbances! I intend be the best version of myself i can be! I intend to let life live me!

I pray to stay sober today. I pray this eft thing works out. I pray for flow and peace and ease. I pray life lives me. I pray to serve the greater good. I pray to work out this back pain. I pray to stand up to my thoughts. I pray to not be scared of pain! I Pray to Face My Pain!

I'm switching to the version of reality I Prefer. IN the reality I prefer,
I am healed. My issues are resolved. I am doing the work. I am making my best work. I am doing everything right.

In the reality I prefer,
I love myself.
I don't give a fuck.
I live the magick life!
I am a powerful witch!

In the reality I prefer, life is taking care of me.
I am brave! I am courageous!
I am in the flow!
I am at peace with what is!

I totally and completely love and accept myself!

I love it when I do the work. I love it when I remember who I am. I love it when I let life live me. I love it when I find new music to listen to! I love it when I make music! I love it when I make my best work. I love it when I feel energized. I love it when I resolve my fucking issues!

Dear Jessica,
You are resolved. You are perfect. Let the flow through you. You can't rip the skin off a snake. It's all happening in perfect time. You are a star! You are already who you want to be!

Jessica Mullen

The One Who Watches Is Already Free

Jessica Mullen
So happy and grateful to be awake and alive,
choosing my thoughts, choosing my feelings
Watching the thoughts and feelings go by
I'm reading The Untethered Soul by Michael Singer again, and he's reminding me to just watch...
"Who is feeling?" "Who is thinking?" Feelings are just an object you can release. Thoughts are just an object you can release. Let it pass. Release. Let go.

So happy and grateful to be creating,
even if I judge every creation and beat myself up for not making something more cohesive
better fuller more done more complete.

So happy and grateful to be learning how to love myself and
find new music and feel good about myself and be my reason for feeling good.

So happy and grateful you're making me want to be a better person, ha!

So happy and grateful to take responsibility for how I feel. I am taking responsibility for how I feel. I am my source of love. I am my source of flow. I am my source of peace.

My mind tries to trick me, look outside of you! That would make you feel better! That person would make you feel better! That habit would make you feel better!

So happy and grateful to be transcending the mind. So happy and grateful to feel good right now, by choice. Because I chose so.

So happy and grateful to be doing the work. So happy and grateful to have better habits. So happy and grateful to be learning how to not hate myself so much.

So happy and grateful to be loving myself. So happy and grateful it's getting easier to love myself. So happy and grateful it's getting easier to be the source of my love. So happy and grateful it's getting easier to be in the habit of writing every day.

So happy and grateful to have the best wife in the world. So happy and grateful she coaches. So happy and grateful she had us run. So happy and grateful to be feeling better.

So happy and grateful to feel in love. I love myself. -I- love myself. I love myself. Who loves myself? Who is doing the loving?

So happy and grateful my abs are getting stronger. So happy and grateful my neck is healed. So happy and grateful my body feels good. So happy and grateful to have new music to listen to. So happy and grateful to have friends in all the places. SO happy and grateful to choose freedom over pain.

The one who watches is already free.

Wouldn't it be nice to have the best day of my life? Wouldn't it be nice to be more transparent, to ask for what I want, to feel more confident and sure of myself? Wouldn't it be nice to focus on loving myself all day today? I love myself. I love myself. The one who watches is already free!

Wouldn't it be nice to record my best video yet? Wouldn't it be nice to make my best work? Wouldn't it be nice to feel more confident about my content? Wouldn't it be nice to have a better system? Wouldn't it be nice to let go of my pain? Wouldn't it be nice to just lighten up and have fun all day? Wouldn't it be nice to bask in the present moment? Wouldn't it be nice to let go of my worries?

I WANT

  • to remember to be the watcher
  • to remember to love myself
  • to be 100% DEVOTED to loving myself
  • to find a more comfortable desk chair!
  • to feel strong in my core!
  • to MAKE MY BEST WORK
  • to feel confident and organized and inspired and magickal about my creations
  • to laugh and play and have fun with my wife!
  • to watch the thoughts and feelings and release them as they come
  • to be in a good mood all day!

Prepave! recording this video
What's the best that could happen before?
IN LOVE WITH MYSELF
What’s the best that could happen during?
magickal, synchronicity, mind blown, channel of magick, channel of peace and love and clarity and KNOWING
How do you want to feel after?
so creative and inspired and in love with myself!

I am a powerful witch. I command singular focus on loving myself!
I am a powerful witch. I command myself to TRANSCEND THE MIND.

I've noticed I'm doubting myself and that's ok.
I've noticed I'm reaching for things outside of myself to feel good and that's ok.
I've noticed I'm addicted to caffeine and that's ok!
I've noticed I want to feel more confident and that's ok!

I've decided to feel good about my creations. They're working themselves out.
I've decided to feel good about how much I love myself. It's working itself out!
I've decided to feel good about who I am. It's working itself out!!

Today I intend to have the best day of my life. I intend to love myself unconditionally. I intend to have and be fun. I intend to love and be loved. I intend to be kind and compassionate. I intend to do the work. I intend to be the watcher. I intend to transcend thought. I intend to be my best version of myself. I intend to feel the best I've ever felt and I intend to make my best work!

I pray to stay sober today. I pray to let the flow through me. I pray to be the watcher! I pray to NOT GIVE A FUCK WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK!

I'm switching to the version of reality I prefer. In the reality I prefer, I am in the right place at the right time. I am doing everything right. I am focused on me and loving myself. I am the watcher. The watcher is already free!

In the reality I prefer,
I love myself.
I don't give a fuck.
I am a powerful witch.
I live the magick life!

I love it when I do the work! I love it when it all works out! I love it when I get what I want! I love it when I DO ME! I love it when I let go! I love it when I am the watcher!

Dear Jessica,
At your core you are the one who watches. Let the flow inside and let the magick out. It's all already inside of you.

Notice, notice, notice. And be free.

Jessica Mullen

Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life

Jessica Mullen
Life already is the way I want it to be. Life already is the way I want it to be. Life already is the way I want it to be. Life already is the way I want it to be. Life already is the way I want it to be. Life already is the way I want it to be. Life already is the way I want it to be.

So happy and grateful life already is the way I want it to be. So happy and grateful to feel confident and excited about my life. So happy and grateful to feel good about myself. What do I want?

So happy and grateful to be in perfect health. So happy and grateful I can choose what I focus on. So happy and gratefuL I can change my thoughts and change my life. So happy and grateful I can choose to stand up for myself. So happy and grateful I can let life live me. So happy and grateful I can let life take care of me. So happy and grateful I can let the flow through me and just run

So happy and grateful I can lighten up and choose flow. So happy and grateful I can choose to feel good and stop listening to misogynistic music.

So happy and grateful I like myself today. So happy and grateful to be conscious and in control of my vibration.

I am in control of my vibration. I am in control of my vibration. I am in control of my vibration. I am in control of my vibration. I am in control of my vibration.

So happy and grateful I can choose to stop blaming other people for my problems. So happy and grateful I can choose to take 100% responsibility. I am taking 100% responsibility. I am choosing to focus. I am choosing to focus.

My focus is so strong.
I am in control of my vibration.
Life already is the way I want it to be.

I am choosing to feel good now. I am choosing to lift myself up. I am choosing to address my vibration. I am willing to look in the mirror. I am willing to look in the mirror. I am willing to look in the mirror. I am willing to look in the mirror. I am willing to look in the mirror. I am willing to look in the mirror.

I am willing to fall in love. I am willing to fall in love. I am willing to fall in love.

I am in love. I am so in love. I am so in love. I am so in love. I am so in love. I am so in love.

I am so in love.
I am in control of my vibration.
My focus is so strong.
Life already is the way I want it to be.

Wouldn't it be nice to take care of myself and change my thoughts? Wouldn't it be nice to deal with my thoughts? Wouldn't it be nice to let my thoughts go? Wouldn't it be nice to stop searching outside of me for satisfaction and joy? Wouldn't it be nice to remember

I AM THE SOURCE OF THIS FEELING
I am the source of this feeling
I am the source of my love
I am the source of my hate

I am so in love.
I am in control of my vibration.
My focus is so strong.
Life already is the way I want it to be.

I am so in love. I am so in love. I am so in love. I am so in love. I am so in love. I am choosing to be the source.
I am the source of my love.
I am the source of my love.
I am the source of my love.
I am the source of my love.

I am choosing love. I am choosing Love. I am choosing love.

I am so in love.
I am in control of my vibration.
My focus is so strong.
Life already is the way I want it to be.

Wouldn't it be nice to lighten up and have fun! Wouldn't it be nice to not be so serious and dramatic! Wouldn't it be nice to have the best night of my life? Wouldn't it be nice to feel IN LOVE?

Wouldn't it be nice to just have fun and enjoy the present moment?!

I want
to let go
to practice
to let it be easy
to have a good attitude
to do me
to paint the picture I want to live

I want to let go of my old stale desires
I want to let go
I want to feel creative and amazing
I want unblocking
I want IT ALL
I want to GET BACK TO MY WAYS

Prepave! This night!
What's the best that could happen before?
Good mood! CHANGE MY THOUGHTS CHANGE MY LIFE

What’s the best that could happen during?
STRONG FOCUS STRONG FOCUS CHOOSING CHOOSING CHOOSING LOVE

How do you want to feel after?
LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE

I am a powerful witch.
I command
LOVE

I've noticed I'm searching outside of myself and that's ok. I've noticed I feel crabby and disappointed in myself and that's ok. I've noticed I want to feel HIGH and FUCKED UP and that's ok!!!!!

I've noticed I want to go WILD and THAT's OK.

I've decided to feel good about my life. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about what I make. It's working itself out. I've decided to feel good about my life. It's working itself out!

I've decided to feel good about how I feel. It's working itself out!!!

I intend to have the best night of my life.
I intend to love myself.
I intend to be in love.
I intend to be in love.
I intend to be in love.
I intend to DO ME.
I intend to BE MY REASON FOR FEELING GOOD.
I INTEND TO HAVE A STRONG FOCUS!

I pray to stay sober today because I REALLY WANT A DRINK.

I pray for love.

I'm switching to the version of reality I prefer. In the reality I prefer,
I love myself.
I don't give a fuck.
I live the magick life.
I am a powerful witch!
I am brave.
Life already is the way I want it to be.
I Am Doing Me!

I love it when I write and feel better. I love it when I direct my thoughts. I love it when I remember a belief is just A THOUGHT YOU THINK A LOT.

I am devoted to my strong focus.

I love myself.

Dear Jessica,
Change your thoughts, change your life!

Jessica Mullen

I AM FUCKING OPEN

Jessica Mullen
So happy and grateful
to feel better
to be feeling better by the minute
I am feeling better by the minute
So happy and grateful it's October!
My favorite time!
So happy and grateful to be learning to be totally conscious.

So happy and grateful to have friends who love me and take care of me. So happy and grateful to have a wife who loves me and takes care of me. So happy and grateful to have a family who loves me and takes care of me. So happy and grateful to love myself and take care of myself.

So happy and grateful to feel better. So happy and grateful to feel better. So happy and grateful to feel better. So happy and grateful to feel better. So happy and grateful to feel better. So happy and grateful to feel better!

So happy and grateful to feel relieved. So happy and grateful to feel energized. So happy and grateful to feel better! So happy and grateful to love myself and not give a fuck! So happy and grateful to feel excited about life. So happy and grateful to be a powerful witch. So happy and grateful to live the magick life. So happy and grateful to know what I want!

Wouldn't it be nice to lighten up. Wouldn't it be nice to have some new ideas??? Wouldn't it be nice to be light and fun! Wouldn't it be nice to remember to be present? Wouldn't it be nice to make my best work? Wouldn't it be nice to feel better?! Wouldn't it be nice to feel like I'm acting with integrity? Wouldn't it be nice to follow my heart? Wouldn't it be nice to feel the best I've ever felt?

Wouldn't it be nice to play and laugh and have fun? Wouldn't it be nice to let go of my thoughts?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Wouldn't it be nice to feel good about myself today? Wouldn't it be nice to celebrate all I am instead of mourning all I'm not?!

Wouldn't it be nice to let life live me? Wouldn't it be nice to to feel good about my life? Wouldn't it be nice to feel like I'm doing the right thing? Wouldn't it be nice to be my reason for feeling good?

Wouldn't it be nice to love my life today? Wouldn't it be nice to not get so fucking depressed without caffeine? Wouldn't it be nice to feel free? Wouldn't it be nice to have good dreams? Wouldn't it be nice to feel light and playful and fun? Wouldn't it be nice to feel relief? Wouldn't it be nice to feel happy?!

Wouldn't it be nice to trust the process of life? Wouldn't it be nice to not care so much? Wouldn't it be nice to record my best meditation video yet?!?!?!

I WANT

  • to feel better
  • to make my best work!!
  • to CREATE
  • to MAKE
  • to feel the best I've ever felt! on my fucking own! without a single fucking drug!!!
  • to let go of this sadness
  • to stop feeling like someone else is controlling me and control my fucking self
  • to let go of control
  • for life to be fun and deep and i want to be fucking brAVE!
  • to feel better. to feel better. to feel better. because i choose it. i decide it.

Prepave! PARDI!
What's the best that could happen before?
I feel better. I feel better on my own. I feel better on my own. I feel better on my own. I let go. I let go. I let go. I let go. I let go. I let go. I help myself. I feel better. I feel better. I help myself. I do the work. I focus. I feel better. I do it myself. I let go.

What’s the best that could happen during?
Fun! Play! Toys! I feel better! I feel relieved! I am inspired! I am connected! I am OPEN! I AM FUCKING OPEN!

How do you want to feel after?
relieved. happy. successful. open. better. free. in love with myself!

I am a powerful witch. I command myself to have the best day of my life!
I am a powerful witch. I command myself to LET THE FUCK GO!
I am a powerful witch. I command myself to be AT PEACE WITH WHAT IS!

IT WON'T ALWAYS BE LIKE THIS!!!!!!

I've noticed I'm sad and that's ok. I've noticed I'm blaming my external reality for my problems and feelings and that's ok.

I've noticed I feel trapped and not free and that's ok. I've noticed I feel unmotivated and pissed at myself and that's ok. I've noticed I want to feel good about myself and that's ok. I've noticed I want to feel better and that's ok!!!!!

I've decided to feel good about myself. I'm working myself out.
I've decided to feel good about where I am in life. It's working itself out!!

Today I intend to have a good attitude. I intend to be kind and compassionate. I intend to be totally conscious. I intend to love myself. I intend to fall in love with myself. I intend to bask in this seasoN! I intend to enjoy my time. I intend to love my life the way it is. I intend to go within to find my solutions. I intend to wild out!

I intend to let go of my thoughts. I intend to feel confident. I intend to love myself! I intend to let what I want come to me.

I AM LETTING WHAT I WANT COME TO ME.

I pray to stay sober today.
I pray to ask for what I want.
I pray to be confident and vocal about what I want.
I pray to love myself
and my life the way it is.

I'm switching to the version of reality I prefer. In the reality I prefer,
I love myself.
I don't give a fuck.
I live the magick life.
I am a powerful witch!

In the reality I prefer,
life is working out for me. I am free. I can be or do or have anything I want! I am letting life live me. I am free. I am at peace with what is. I am totally conscious.

I love it when I write. I love it when I feel better. I love it when I feel the flow. I love it when I ask for what I fucking want. I love it when I do the work. I love it when I feel confident and happy to be me! I love it when I stand up for myself. I love it when I feel strong and brave! I love it when I SHINE.

Dear Jessica,
It's all working out for you. Relax and let it be easy. It can be easy. You've already asked. Let go of your thoughts. Let it come to you!

Jessica Mullen

my favorite perspective is both

Jessica Mullen
let it out it burns i have to let it out
i can transcend
i can transcend i can let it go
i can transmute the energy into power
i have the power to do whatever i want
finally i see
i see
i am awake
it is working
i asked for this
it won't always be like this
have patience
i always wanted to meet someone with more patience than me
just kidding a lot of people do
or do they
my favorite perspective is both

i am a teenager still in english class scribbling in a little notebook i got from the grocery store

i feel so much and i know there's a way to get it out but i'm not sure where to begin
i'm not sure
and so i switch my perspective to a clear strong signal
right now
i choose a clear strong signal
i choose a clear strong signal
i let go of those thoughts about other people

i release my attachment to outcome.
i release my investment i release it all
i choose to be here now, where it's not always going to be like this

it's not always going to be like this.
it won't always be like this.
it's not always going to be this way.

sorry i'm guarded
sorry i closed

trying to remember to be open

sorry to judge myself
i love myself

sorry i closed
i am remembering to be open

sorry i'm cold
it keeps me awake

gotta laugh at myself on this one
just on time
the
fall
rush

i am just letting the flow through me
my new goal is to not be so pretentious!

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i know exactly what i'm doing
i know i'm in the right place at the right time
i know i'm doing everything right
i stopped watching the weather

i trust the process of life i am done second guessing what i do what i say
i am at peace with what is i am choosing to focus my attention!

i am choosing to publish this stream of consciousness writing for anyone to read and why?
for the built in second perspective

i'm on fire i'm on fire
i'm burning
it's october
right on time

i am waking up
opening
back up

sorry i closed

i am open
i am open
i am open
it's not always going to be like this
everything is perfect and in its place.

back to reality
the second perspective can really put a stop to things too
why write in public
why
write
in
pubic

because it holds me to a higher standard
it opens me up
humbles me
if i didn't do this
i wouldn't be in the habit of writing

it's easy to write because i write
i love to write

i guess the reason to have those structured posts is because i run out of things to say!

so high.

ok anyway.

this is

i am letting the flow through me
i am exactly where i need to be
i am open to the flow flowing through me
i can channel
i am a channel
i am a bridge
i am a channel
i am one with life
i am one with life

i am choosing what to focus on i am choosing to feel good and be present
i am choosing a new life right now
in this moment i choose a new life
i am clean new fresh again
right here right now

right now i am choosing to be light and open up i am choosing to lighten up
i am choosing to relax and be here now

get your mind

go get your mind she's drunk

i am choosing to transmute the energy
i allow the energy to rise
flow up and out
connecting me to the great big ghost in the sky

i am once again connected
i am once again in the flow
i am now in the flow

scattered
but it doesn't have to be that way
it won't always be this way!
listen to my playlist

it hurts to be open sometimes
like stretching open a piercing
gauging out your ears
open up!
open up!
it won't always be like this.
open up!

open up and it's halloween and this is the time!
it is time to go out and feel adventure on the skin and it's dark in the trees and you might fall in some mud but it will be so funny

life can get deeper without alcohol
life is deeper without alcohol
life is deeper without alcohol
life is deeper without alcohol

life is deeper without alcohol
life is deeper without alcohol

there's a dark part!
it's a big part!
and there's the light part.
i have both.
i see both.
always wanting to catch a plane
knowing i'll feel the same!

let's have fun is all i say
lighten up and

edit away!