40 Day Prosperity Plan Day 29: "When I am aware of the God Self within me as my total fulfillment, I am totally fulfilled. I am now aware of this Truth. I have found the secret of life, and I relax in the knowledge that the Activity of Divine Abundance is eternally operating in my life. I simply have to be aware of the flow, the radiation, of that Creative Energy, which is continuously, easily and effortlessly pouring forth from my Divine Consciousness. I am now aware. I am now in the flow."
I haven't had much to say about the Prosperity Plan in the form of notes, but each and every day it has connected to my spiritual practice. Usually the passage reflects/complements whatever mantra I'm using. Today the mantra is "Love Yeah Love" which goes nicely with the idea of "God Self".
"When I am aware of the God Self
(Love Yeah Love)
within me as my total fulfillment
(Love Yeah Love),
I am totally fulfilled
(when I am able to say "love yeah love" to all of my moments, thus being aware of, accepting, and embracing the divinity of each moment, I am totally fulfilled).
I am now aware of this Truth. I have found the secret of life
(Love Yeah Love),
and I relax in the knowledge that the Activity of Divine Abundance
(Love Yeah Love)
is eternally operating in my life
(when I say "love yeah love" to everything, I am connected to my god self. I always have god by my side. Thus I see that my entire manifested three dimensional reality is just the activity of divine abundance, and I can trust it more).
I simply have to be aware of the flow
(to be aware of the flow is to be able to let go--of each passing thought, of each moment, never getting a thought or emotion stuck in the system. "Love Yeah Love" as a mantra provides footholds or stepping stones in time to keep the flow moving. With each "Love Yeah Love," notice what you are thinking and feeling and experiencing, and to each say, "Love Yeah Love. I'm letting things go. Love Yeah Love. It's ok that I thought or felt that but now I'm moving on."),
(Love Yeah Love is a FORCE),
of that Creative Energy, which is continuously, easily, and effortlessly pouring forth from my Divine Consciousness
(my attention is the director of that Creative Energy, which is forever expressing itself as manifested reality. When my attention is on Love Yeah Love, my reality manifests Love. Regardless of what my attention is on, all manifestations are expressions of Divine Consciousness and therefore all holy).
I am now aware
(of Love Yeah Love).
I am now in the flow
(I am now one with the wave of life, instead of fighting against it. By saying "love yeah love" to it all, I am embracing the movement of life, becoming like water)."
I am now in the flow. I am now totally fulfilled, because I am whole in each moment. I am in love each moment. I am aware of the divinity of each moment. When I know that each moment is a miracle of abundance, it is impossible to lack anything. I know that each moment is giving me something I wanted. I know that each moment loves me. I know the stars are shining for me. I know life is smiling at me. I know the flowers are cheering for me. I know the floor is holding me up. I know I am loved. I know I am receiving. I know who I am. I am totally fulfilled, with love. Yeah, love.
40 Day Prosperity Plan Day 17: The Divine Consciousness that I am is forever expressing its true nature of Abundance. This is its responsibility, not mine. My only responsibility is to be aware of this Truth. Therefore, I am totally confident in letting go and letting God appear as the abundant all sufficiency in my life and affairs.
I had my first appointment with a life coach today. It was fucking wild. It was so helpful. It helped me see: I AM FIRE! I have this fire. I am this fire. I resisted a lot of things. But this life coach told me about myself. Want to hear the summary?
This woman, Hannah Hudson, is brilliant. I think she gets the meaning of life more than I do. She asked deep questions immediately and had me crying within 15 minutes. All these parts of myself I never tend to! She opened up a whole new world for me.
She said to me, "You're a direct line." I'm a direct line to divinity. It was so nice to hear someone else acknowledge my connection.
Here are the important ideas:
- You get to choose.
- There's nothing to fix.
- Laughter and play are what I'm looking for in my work.
- With all of this "not trying" "trusting what's right in front of you" and "listening to others" (my process of "allowing"), there is a lot of judgement still--a lot of pressure around getting it right, right now.
- I am learning to let go of what other people think.
- What would "JESSICA ON FIRE" do?!
- After a lot of discussion about my resistance/hatred of my mind, Hannah asked, "What if your mind was beautiful?" That would make everything easier wouldn't it?
- There's this whole other part of yourself that wants to be with you. (Isn't that amazing?!)
- As a direct line to divinity, it can be hard to be with your mortality.
- I am learning to let go of feeling so responsible for others.
- I am learning to stand up for myself and ask for what I want.
- I am working on "OWNING MY HUMANITY"
- I am allowing adventure and freedom to me my dominant states.
- She referred to me as a "mystic" or "channel"--how nice to be recognized for that!
- I get to set the value of my work.
- She kept asking, "What support do you need?" What DO I need?
- I'm afraid of being mean, or experiencing meanness, or being mean to myself.
- I've been drowning my fire with water, but now I am Jessica ON FIRE!
- It's not what you're doing, it's who you're being.
- I am now accessing my fire. Magickal. Hot. Transformational. Mesmerizing.
- I'm allowing myself to ask for what I want, with hooping, my body, my dominance and with money. I am receiving what I want.
I am so grateful for others who reach out to help.
I am so grateful to have someone reach out to me. I am so grateful to hear the perspective of another.
40 Day Prosperity Plan Day 16: My inner supply instantly and constantly takes on form and experience according to my needs and desires, and as the Principle of Supply in action, it is impossible for me to have any unfulfilled needs or desires.
We got up early and dove straight into our new meditation product launch instead of our normal routine of writing and meditating. Around 4pm we finally hopped in the shower and got ready to leave for a bike ride up north. It was so beautiful out we couldn't stay in the house one more minute!
We stopped at Gourdough's for a free PayPal donut. The Mother Clucker was going to take 7-10 minutes to cook, so we set our meditation timer for 5 minutes.
It was probably the best meditation I've ever experienced. I felt so cared for, so blissed out on weather and free food and bike rides.
I've been returning to "feeling my inner body" as often as I remember, which is probably about once every two hours. Just the act of attempting to feel my inner body is enough to take my attention off of my thoughts and place it onto the Now.
Isn't it weird you can't itch two itches at once?
Today has been THE most prosperous day I've had in a long time. I would like to tell you about it now!
We received a big donation from a lovely lady. We sold meditations, both physical and digital. We got a payout from a shopping cart affiliate. We got a subscription payment from a total sweetheart. We entertained a client. We got free food with PayPal. Someone contacted us to do WordPress consulting. We paid back a friend we owed money to. We paid our utility bill. We bought $11.45 of vegan groceries. (We had $12 in cash we were willing to spend.)
We made delicious popcorn. We had a kale smoothie for breakfast and brown rice and green beans for lunch. We had 2 quarters to get pop at HEB. We laughed hysterically in the HEB parking lot. We worked for five straight hours on a product launch! We had a client over. We made plans with another client. We gave a copy of the new meditation booklet to our friend.
We effortlessly biked 16 miles in 75º weather. We wore sleeveless shirts and skirts/shorts. We saw tons of Escalades and Hummers and Range Rovers and Land Rovers and G Wagons. Two of my friends, who I ADORE, texted me. I texted with my mom.
We meditated outside. My cat is sitting on my lap. We filled out our own School of Life Design worksheets and loved it. We made a list of 60 things we loved about our day. I hooped.
I scooped the cat litter. Kelly did the laundry. We cooked. We ate out for free. We sat outside enjoying espresso and a turkey sandwich. I posted tons of photos to insta. We made projector art at our friends' place.
This has literally been the best, most abundant day of my life. And I know that it only felt so gloriously abundant because I CHOSE to make it that way. I've been focusing on prosperity for 16 days. I've been taking care of myself the past few days. I've been eating pretty ok and exercising all the time. I've been doing my work! I've felt motivated, inspired, and excited. I've been remembering my dreams.
I have never felt more loved and supported. I have never felt more self-love! I used to feel so needy--wanting drugs, or friends to hit me up, or to feel good about my body. Today I didn't want drugs. Today my friends DID hit me up--but I was already busy. I felt great about my body, because I feel strong and healthy and grateful to be alive.
I am so grateful to feel prosperous. I am so grateful to feel abundant. I am so grateful to be making money 8 ways in one day! I am so grateful to get to get free food! I am so grateful to get to talk to my mom and my friends! I am so grateful for my health! I am so grateful for my kitties! I am so grateful for my wonderful designer wife! I am so grateful to feel good about life!
I am so grateful I know everything is working out. I am so grateful I can feel life taking care of me. I am so grateful to have money for food and for our utility bill. I am so grateful for people who support our work.
I am so grateful for my home. I am so grateful for my city. I am so grateful to be aware of my inner body. I am so grateful to know what I want. I am so grateful to be receiving!
Wouldn't it be nice to have a wonderful meeting tomorrow? Wouldn't it be nice to feel exhilarated and thrilled and completely blown away with gratitude? (I already do!) Wouldn't it be nice to give back more? Wouldn't it be nice to have the best trip of my life? Wouldn't it be nice to laugh and laugh and laugh? Wouldn't it be nice to ride these beautiful waves?
I love it when I feel like writing. I love it when I do the work. I love it when I feel prosperous. I love it when I keep up with my daily practices. I love it when I feel good in my body. I love it when I feel strong and healthy. I love it when life is fun! I love it when I do my work and get to have fun! I love it when I feel excited to wake up!
What do you want?
To feel the best I've ever felt. To ride the waves. To let the flow lead. To enjoy well being. To explore feeling my inner body deeper and deeper every day. To give love. To give.
You are a star. You are magickal. You are receiving everything you've ever wanted. Keep opening up to receive more, and enjoy!