Hi, I’m Jessica, and I’m a witch. I’m not a traditional witch by any means–I believe witchcraft is making magick in any way one sees fit. I don’t follow pagan holidays, I don’t worship specific deities and I avoid spiritual labels. I make my own rules and rituals and design my own tools for manifestation. I like to refer to my type of witchery as “living the magick life,” which means dreaming big, trusting the process of life, and training one’s mind to see the miracle we’re already living.
American Witch Magazine approached me to write an article for their site, and my wife asked me what I was going to write about. I told her probably my recent sobriety, to which she responded, “Boring! Wouldn’t you rather write about something other than deprivation?”
Her reply brings me to my topic, which is, DON’T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT WHAT ANYONE ELSE THINKS OR SAYS.
Sobriety isn’t necessary to the practice of witchcraft, but when I recently reached alcoholism of epic proportions, I made a decision to dry out and see life more clearly. Every single day I had been sick with hangovers, and drunken evenings left no time for spiritual work.
I was drinking myself dry of personal power. I was drinking to gloss over my irritations with others. I was drinking to numb myself to things I didn’t like. I was drinking because I thought other people wanted me to. I was drinking because I was bored. I was drinking because I always drank. I was drinking because I was scared. I was drinking because I thought I couldn’t have fun any other way.
So when my life coach helped me come to the decision to sober up 18 days ago, I felt so relieved. Finally! I won’t be hungover every day! Finally, I’ll remember my evenings! I won’t hate getting out of bed every day!
I don’t give a fuck if you drink or not. And I’m not saying I’ll never drink again. But what this short time of sobriety has taught me is that to be a witch and practice magick, you cannot GIVE A FUCK WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK! There will always be naysayers and haters and people threatened by YOU DOING YOU. There will always be bad influences and people who drain your energy. Who cares? You don’t have to give a fuck about them!
My personal power comes from stepping outside of my mind and connecting to source energy. It comes from seeing from a larger perspective and going with the flow. It comes from trusting that life loves me and I’m in the right place at the right time. It comes from my awareness of my connection to infinite intelligence, or god if you like to call it that.
Drinking was draining my personal power, and now I have more than ever. But I never could have stopped drinking if I took other people’s opinions into consideration.
Hi, I’m Jessica, and I’m a witch. And I don’t give a fuck about what you think.
(P.S. To my sweet wife, I love you and thank you for the article inspiration ;-)
Kelly had a really bad earache and she's not the type to go to the doctor. I did some brief googling, gathered that most earaches don't need to be treated with antibiotics, and that there are tons of home remedies that will lessen pain and help the infection heal faster.
The day before Kelly got sick, we had gone to the store. I picked up one white onion, "in case we want to make something." Wouldn't you know it, a lot of people online suggested onion-based ear infection treatments.
Crying in pain with a swollen face and unable to talk or swallow, Kelly agreed to try this onion juice treatment I found:
- Bake whole onion in oven at 450º (no need to preheat), until warm. A small onion takes 15 minutes, a big one more like 25.
- Cut in half and allow to cool enough to handle. Squeeze the juice out of one half of the onion, into a small dish. I found the most juice towards the outer layers.
- Suck the juice into a pipette or eye dropper. Drop 2-3 drops in the infected ear, 2-3 times a day. Place the other half of the onion on the infected ear and put a towel over it. The heat and onion fumes help draw out the infection. Remove your onion earmuff once it cools completely.
Kelly's ear felt better instantly, and she was able to talk again within 15 minutes of the drops. After a day and a half of onion juice drips, she is cured!
This weekend I'm auditioning to teach Body Combat, a martial-arts-inspired group exercise class. If I pass the audition, I go onto a weekend training. Then I submit a video of myself teaching, and if I pass THAT, then I can start team teaching and subbing classes and eventually the goal is to have my own regular class at the gym. This audition is all I can think about, so that's what the tips are inspired by this week.
1. Even if you might fail, TRY IT!
Kelly and I were greeted by the gym maintenance man as we pulled up on our bikes last Friday. He asked if we were going to class, and said he thought we were instructors. "Not yet!" I said. With enthusiasm he said, "If you don't try, you'll always wonder what would have happened." When I told my first-ever group fitness instructor about my plans to audition, she said, "This will be the best decision of your life!" I mean, right?!
2. Do things for fun.
When I started taking Body Combat at the YMCA, I would just laugh and smile through the whole thing. I could not BELIEVE I was shuffling around a mirrored room punching the air. I felt silly and self conscious, but euphoric and eager to learn. The class is just my jam! It's often the most fun thing I do all week. The people, the energy, the music, the routines--I am hopelessly hooked! Every time I start to stress about my audition, I just remind myself I'm doing it for fun. I'm doing it because I have this unstoppable love for kickboxing set to pop music that brings tears to my eyes. Kelly and I always say to each other, "Les Mills saved my life again." (Les Mills is the company that produces Body Combat.) The group fitness classes we take are what we credit with keeping us healthy, diurnal, and off of drugs.
3. Tell people your dreams. They believe in you and want to help you!
My fitness instructors at the gym are my heroes. These people have wonderful attitudes, inspiring confidence and endless charisma. They are the people helping me become the best version of myself I can be, physically, mentally and spiritually. Magen, Boni and Dee Dee, THANK YOU for your encouragement and support!
4. Believe in yourself.
I could focus on all the things I'm afraid of, or I can emphasize how EXCITED I am, and all the great changes that are happening in my life. I'm getting stronger. I can do legit pushups and Kelly complimented my side kicks. I've been taking Body Combat for about three years, and it's influenced my life in so many ways. I used to not be able to hang our bicycles up, but it was only because I didn't think I could. One day I said to myself, "If I'm going to become a fitness instructor, I have to be able to hang my own bike from a hook on the ceiling." Then one day I tried it, and I could. And now it's easy. I can do it!
5. Don't be attached to a specific outcome.
If I don't pass this audition, I'll just have to ask how I can improve and try again another time. I have to be ok with failing. I have to be ok with people judging me if I fail. I have to trust the flow of life. I have to remember that everything happens in perfect time. "When it is all finished, you will discover it was never random."
6. Be brave.
I am scared to post this! I am so scared to fail! But I have to remember fear is just excitement with the brakes on. While I am pursuing this unexpected passion of mine, I want to share as much of the experience as I can. Blogging is a fine line of divulging personal experiences and sharing life lessons, but nothing helps me make sense of life better. I want to remember my grad school passion of BE TRANSPARENT! WHO NEEDS PRIVACY?! LIFESTREAM EVERYTHING!
Wish me luck! Thanks for the encouragement and support!