Does seeing the word Adderall make you salivate? Does it unleash an unreasonable craving, or pull up fun memories?
On November 24, 2013, I quit taking addies for good. I needed too much, I was abusing it, to the point that a friend had to step in and say something.
I’ve been experimenting with the medicine since I was 15, when someone at school gave me a tiny blue 5mg pill. Eager to try anything my parents said I shouldn’t, I began a 16 year infatuation with legal speed.
Adderall is just too good. It keeps you awake, makes you feel euphoric, lets you drink more alcohol and eat less food.
It is also a highly addictive amphetamine, and few people I know are able to turn it down when offered.
There’s nothing wrong with taking some occasional speed. And there may be some people in the universe who genuinely benefit from their prescription. But if you are a star child here to help consciousness evolve, it might be time to let the uppers go. According to starchildren.info,
It is critically important that if your child gets diagnosed with ADD or ADHD that you don’t run out and join the medicated child bandwagon. Medicating these special children will severely inhibit their abilities. This is a really easy option for many parents who just aren’t patient or can’t handle their Indigo children. Try to look at the bigger picture. You and your child have both previously agreed to your arrangement before you even set foot on this earth. Know that children can be handled without medication. This may be very difficult for some parents so consider joining a support group or even better, order up an angel to help you! It’s a difficult journey but one that can be made through together. The problem with medicating Indigo Children is that it lowers their vibrational frequency. They will be unable to or find it extremely difficult to fulfill their life’s purpose at this lower energy level.
After taking high doses of addy and observing my behavior, I noticed the drawbacks were beginning to outweigh the advantages. I constantly felt “lacking,” waiting for my next dose. There is never enough. I don’t want to share. After a few days on the stuff, I could barely smile because the tension in my head was so high. And coming down off an addy binge is horrific–no motivation, shortness of breath, weakness, boredom and depression, and wanting to eat every pizza I see.
Adderall takes such a prominent place in my daily life design guide because I see it as a mind-based epidemic spiraling out of control like obesity. It’s a symptom of our collective psychotic mind, over-thinking so much that we need an energy boost to keep up. Want another perspective? Check out Cat Marnell’s explanation of why we all need to finally get off the Adderall.
I feel so much better when I’m off addy. I’m glad I got to have all the fun I did with it, but it’s no longer serving my spiritual evolution. I write this having just drunk 2 shots of espresso, another legal stimulant I may someday wish to let go. Baby steps though right?
How do you feel about Adderall, legal speed, and uppers in your life design practice?
Saturday night Kelly and I were going to walk to 7-11 for a frozen pizza.
We’ve been upping our health game lately, so we’ve been counting calories and eating less, but our fondness for pizza knows no bounds.
Pizza was going to put us way over budget, but we were giving in. We were hungry.
Then I started playing Astrojax. I found myself actually having fun playing, so much that I wanted to record a video to see my progress.
The video was aight. But I did notice that my arms look slimmer. And so do my legs.
So a few minutes later when Kelly said, “You ready to go?” I said, “Don’t you just want to go to bed? I watched my video and I looked slimmer. I can’t fuck with that.”
We didn’t go. That is why lifestreaming is a life design methodology. It’s just a mirror. If you can see it, you can measure it. If you can measure it, you can manage it. If you manage it, you change.
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Kelly and I went to two group fitness classes today— RPM (a cycle class) and Body Pump (weightlifting). I really love getting stronger so I’ve been making it a point to go as hard as I can in class.
Last night Kelly and I were filling out a “Make My Day” worksheet together. I asked her, “What do you want to think?” She answered, “That I’m the best.” I LOVED that.
So in class today, when the exercises became challenging, I said to myself, “I can do it. I’m the best!” Every time I said it to myself when I was struggling, I got my strength back. I went harder than ever before. I upped my weights on my squats, biceps and back and had the most fun I’ve ever had. I stood up straighter and smiled more.
Saying “I can do it, I’m the best!” also helped me to feel confident and good about myself. I walked out of the gym feeling like hot shit, because I can do it! I’m the best!