"I am turning my phone off.
I am turning Facebook and Twitter off.
I am turning email off.
I installed StayFocusd. I can use FB, twitter, and email combined for 30 minutes a day.
New Year’s resolution: Relax.
Mantra of 2015: 12345678910
Style direction of 2015: pool party on the moon."
I love fresh starts. I love deciding to improve myself. However, after 32 years on this planet, I've learned to stop making grand sweeping claims that THIS TIME I AM GOING TO CHANGE! I SWEAR!
I've tried declaring sobriety and weightloss intentions. I've tried waking up early to go to the gym every day. I've tried to quit smoking, and I've tried to smoke more.
Who cares? Here I am in the same place at the same time, feeling distraught, wanting more sober time, with more weight to lose, and the same desire to MAKE IT this year, I swear this year my work is going to change the world!
I have a vision of this perfect self I want to become.
Skinny, with no attachment to alcohol, drugs or comfort food.
In peak physical condition, parkouring around my neighborhood and making new marathon PRs.
All with a hulahoop around my waist, and a camera crew documenting my every graceful move.
I wake up in the morning to write a mind blowing article about the meaning of life. I don't need acid, and you don't need acid, because I AM ACID!
Oh, also I get up at 6:30am. I meditate and clean my chakras with essential oils and crystals.
On the weekends I frolic at music festivals where I perform my magickal hoop gymnastics and heal people with my effortless embodiment of flow and well being. I never plan these trips because someone is always offering to drive me and pay for my ticket.
I wear my cat Pwny as a scarf when I run around town. Linty walks gracefully on a leash next to me. Kelly and I are constantly engrossed in deep conversation... without saying a word.
$5,000 we make a month comes to us in recurring, passive income. And that's just from the 555 subscribers we have to the School of Life Design library. I'm also constantly getting asked to make photomanipulation illustrations for digital music, and to write How To blog posts for Erowid, Clickhole, High Times, Evolver, and other consciousness raising platforms.
Miraculously, all of my family loves me and my work. I always have perfect timing when it comes to my family, and we frequently get together to work out at the gym and have art parties.
I have the best friends, but I always Do Me, so if I can't hang out because I'm incubating a mind-blowing project, I don't feel guilty.
I NEVER feel guilty.
One day I woke up and mold didn't grow in my bathroom and in the windowsills anymore.
My dad emailed to set up a monthly lunch, just me and him. My mom did the same, except we get to go shopping at Neiman's and Nordstrom. And Dick's.
I paid off all my debt this year. It was easier than I expected. The money just came.
Stores all around Austin are emailing me so they can stock copies of the Monthly Manifestation Manual. We make $10 off every copy sold, so that's a nice additional $100/day we're making.
My video meditations have really taken off, since my subscribers multiplied to 100,000. I just have a way with relaxing people and making them believe everything is going to be ok.
And while I am constantly doing me and working on my mind-blowing work, I have found it in my heart to be generous and always give what I want to receive.
I help people clean and improve their homes. I listen to people talk about their problems and offer telepathic advice. I share my resources and cook for my friends. I reach out to people to let them know I care. I give holiday gifts. I give birthday gifts. I give gifts all the time, just because. I give big hugs. I practice compassion all the days of my life. I always react with love.
When I do deliberately decide to go on a bender and party my ass off, I never feel sick the next day. I always stay conscious. I approach life evenly and calmly. I always let what I want come to me. I accept gifts and take no action.
I haven't had a setback in 20 years. I am so deeply in love with myself. I would date myself if I could.
Also, I maintain my perfect health with herbal remedies, oils, and I use food as medicine.
In 2015 I finally lost that 20 pounds, made that $90,000 and let myself be the person I want to be. I am comfortable with performing in front of a live audience, and frequently collaborate with musicians who play behind me as I transfix my captive admirers.
Life became infinitely better for me in 2015, because I decided to
NEVER FEEL GUILTY AGAIN
and I just relax all day every day
and count silently in my head, keeping my mind and thoughts off "this world."
Since I just keep feeling better and better, life keeps giving me solutions. I am finally solved.
10 hours later... Since I wrote this, I turned my phone back on to 64 texts. Checked my email and my mom had emailed me asking to do lunch. I changed my minutes allowed on email/FB/twitter to 10 minutes and that definitely got me out of my inbox and away from fb stalker-ville.
And I went to the gym and felt much better about life. I counted to 5900 and felt much better about life. I meditated and felt much better about life. I had some epiphanies in the shower and felt much better in life (I always practice presence when I'm feeling bad, because I want something. But when I try practicing it when I already feel good, it's so much better/more powerful. I don't usually milk the feeling of feeling good because I get sucked into thinking about the thing that made me feel good. But instead of thinking about what made me feel good, I should just let myself feel good. The more I encourage and focus on and pay attention to moments when I feel good, the more I will experience them).
I didn't go to the liquor store on the way home (not that it matters!!!!) . I feel good about myself today. I can't give you any resolutions for 2015 (although "relax" is definitely still the theme), but the ones I used today worked really well. I declare I already am the perfect version of myself.
"Those things you want to change about yourself probably won't ever change anyway until you stop caring about changing." ~Kelly Cree
What if we really could be happy with what we have? What if we didn't need to change our bodies, relationships, or bank accounts to feel good about our lives? What if we could just make peace with what is, and see that we already have everything we want? Here are a few ideas for entering that state of mind.
Hungover? Count to 1000. So angry you could hit someone? Count to 100. Want to have a good day? Count to 10,000. One of the reasons silent counting works so well is because it gives me some distance from worries, fears, and overthinking long enough to see I didn't need any of those thoughts in the first place.
2. Act like you're always in a music video.
I am perpetually collecting methods for being present, or "in the Now". Nothing makes me more aware and appreciative of my current reality than listening to some good jams and pretending I'm the star of the video!
3. Try this mantra: "All my wishes are coming true."
Any time either Kelly or I get something we wanted, we exclaim, "All my wishes are coming true!" Notice it, get more of it!
4. Try this mantra: "I've decided to feel good about that. It's working itself out."
Last Friday I got up late. Instead of beating myself up about it, I said to myself, "I've decided to feel good about getting up late. It's working itself out." Then Kelly and I had to rush to get ready for an 8 mile bike ride up north. Kelly asked me if I wanted to meditate before we left, and even though I felt rushed, I decided to sit. I said to myself, "I've decided to feel good about my timing. It's working itself out." By the time we finished meditating, our friend had texted asking if we wanted a ride. On a humid, 90 degree day?! Yes! All our wishes are coming true!
5. Feel your inner body.
Another technique for entering the present moment, "feeling your inner body" is a suggestion I snagged from Eckhart Tolle. The idea is that feeling your inner body helps you sense the infinite energy source from which you come, and it takes your attention away from overthinking.
As I ease through my third decade of being human, I come to realize again and again that the solution is always to meditate. There is no action I can take to make more money or lose weight. But I can sit down to meditate, remember my oneness with life, and know that everything is already perfect and in its place and I don't need to change a thing.
My current mantra/technique for not driving myself crazy is this: to each worry or concern that arises in my mind, I say, "I've decided to feel good about that. It's working itself out." Then once I've run out of worries to pivot from, I come back to the present. I say, "Breathe in and be here now. Breathe out and be here now." I do my best to be present, alert and connected to the Now, where everything is fun and there is nothing to worry about.
I've been recording 3-10 minute video meditations for YouTube since September 2012. I started making them because my boss at the time told me I had a sexy voice, and I'd always wanted to record guided meditations.
Every day I receive sweet comments from people, telling me how my meditations have helped them with depression, anxiety, insomnia, and chronic pain. Some people watch them to relax, and some just like the reminder to breathe.
One day, a woman emailed me asking for a longer-form meditation, so she could relax more deeply without having to click the "Next" button, or have to listen to ads or an introduction every 4 minutes. And so Everything Is Going To Be OK was born!
Everything Is Going To Be OK is an 11 track compilation of my best meditations, edited to flow together seamlessly. You can purchase a physical CD which comes with a booklet of transcriptions, or download a zip file of 11 MP3s and one PDF. The hard copy is $20 and is available in the U.S. only. The digital download is $9 and is delivered instantly!
Check out the tips below to learn how the meditations can help you.
1. Stop doing, start listening.
Do you get wrapped up in feeling like you need to ACHIEVE and DO and SUCCEED? Me too! Every time I get wound so tight I could snap, I record a meditation that helps me remember what I know. I can relax! I can let it be easy! I can let it come to me! "You Do Not Have to Care" is a good track for opening up to receiving.
2. Overthinking something?
Listen to track two, "Everything Is Going To Be OK." It explains the power of your thoughts, and how to let go of the ones you don't need.
3. Feel safe and secure.
If you crave financial security or the safety of a lover's arms, listen to "Be One With Life." It will help you see that the only true security comes from uniting with the flow of life, not from money or relationships or things.
4. Just breathe.
When I start feeling lack, like, "I need money!" I remember that my breath is the only abundance I need. Fortunes come and go, health goes up and down, but as long as you're breathing, you have everything you truly need. Life takes care of the birds in the sky and the plants on the ground, so why wouldn't it take care of you too? Place your focus on your breath and feel more abundant with each inhalation. "Your Abundance Is Your Breath" and "Conscious Breathing" are perfect reminders of how blessed you already are.
5. Be in the Now.
Every one of these meditations will help you become more present. In the Now, everything is fun and there's nothing to worry about. In the Now, the solution is right in front of you. In the Now, you feel loved and connected to life. In the Now, life is good!
I promise these meditations will help you relax and feel more centered. Whether you need a mood boost, or some help dealing with your problems, I can guide you back to that place where you feel happy, loved and at ease. Whatever is going on in your life, know that everything really is going to be ok.
Preview the Meditations
Don't forget, if you subscribe to the School of Life Design for $9/month, you get access to the digital download of Everything Is Going to Be OK as well as all of our worksheets, audio recordings and eBooks. It's a steal! You can read more about our subscription service here.
The digital Everything Is Going To Be Okay is a 55-minute guided audio meditation and 40-page, 8.5×11″ transcription PDF written and designed by Kelly Cree and Jessica Mullen. The ZIP file you receive will include 11 MP3s and one PDF. When you purchase this digital download, you will receive two e-mails from PayPal. The first is your confirmation email; the second will arrive shortly after and contains your product download link.
Hard copies of Everything Is Going To Be Okay are 40-page, 5.5×8.5" saddle stitched booklets and include a 55-minute audio CD. Books ship flat in a padded envelope and are shipped via media mail. Price includes shipping. At this time, Everything Is Going To Be Okay is shipped only in the U.S. Allow up to 10 business days for delivery.